Double Trouble

chapter 26

" mom!? Mom hello?" I asked eagerly on the phone as we were still driving. " misa? Misa are you there?" She asked, breaking up a few times. " yes ma. I'm here whats wrong?" I asked and she started crying. "Daniel...." She studdered then broke down in tears. Her sobs overpowered the phone and I couldn't help but to hang up.

I looked out the windshield, in silence.   The one person who was there for my mom, and for me, was gone.

But yet I didn't cry, I didn't even express any emotion at all.

Gray stared at me, his eyes flickering to the road to stay in control. But he didn't ask any questions. He knew.

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We came to a stop and Grayson took the key out of the ignition. We sat in silence for a few minutes, the sun setting beautifully over the horizon. We didnt speak for 2 hours. And so far its kinda been nice to not talk.

" misa... I... I'm sorry." He said grabbing my hand and squeezing it. I gave a weak smile and squeezed his hand as well. " its just hard. To wrap it around my head." I whispered looking down. He nodded and perced his lips together. After a few minutes he broke the silence.

" uh I gotta go, me and E are shooting a video..." He said and I nodded and smiled. We got out of his car and met at the stairs.

" you gonna be alright?" He asks pulling me close to him and wrapping his arms around me. " yea... Ill try to be." I confessed and he sighed. " misa, its okay to not be fine. Its okay." He assured and I nodded.

He leaned in and gently pressed his velvet lips against mine before heading to his dorm. " I love you." He whispered and I bit my lip. " I love you too. " I replied back and we headed to our dorms.

This day couldn't get any worse.

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Before I headed up the stairs I got a call from an unknown number. "hello?" I asked and immediately recognized the voice. " hello I'm from seventeen magazine. I'm calling to tell you that unfortunately, your place here has been taken. " she confirms and I scoff. " what? No. She said I got the spot." I complained and she continued. " I'm sorry, seems as if another offer was taken." Then she Hung up.

Great... It could get worse. And it did.

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I walk through the door to see Ana in a party dress and curling her hair. The usual.

" where have you been?" She asks with a smirk and I wink. " oh just with Gray. What are you up to?" I tried to switch off the subject. " heading to a party. You coming?" She asked and I shook my head. "Not feeling it tonight." I said quietly and plopped myself comfortably in my bed. She glared at me then sat down next to me. "Misa...I know that tone. What's up?"she asks calmly grabbing my hand in hers.

"Um... Its just...um.." I tried to explain but I couldnt without eventually breaking down in tears. I needed go let them out. "I got a call from my mom." I said, choking in the words. Her fave went soft and she perced her
Lips together. Her eyes began to look glassy and her cheeks got a bit red.

"Oh sweetie..." She said softly pulling me into a hug. I cried I to her arms and just let all the emotions escape. Its not good holding them in. And when I let them out, I honestly feel stronger.

"Hun, I can stay if you want." She says after a while but I shake my head. " no. No go. Dont worry about me."I laugh a bit as I wipe my tears. " I got my trusty side kick." I joked as I grabbed the bottle of hennesy from my mini fridge. "Yea no "she says taking the bottle from me and putting it to the side. " you have to overcome this. you can't numb the pain away." She says and I nod. Even though numbing the pain is the only sane thing right now.

She assures that I'm okay and then syas her goodbyes as she ezits to go party, leaving me in a very bad state, but its whatever I guess.

After she leaves, I lay back in my bed and stare at the ceiling.

I tilt my head to the side and eye the bottle sitting there on my counter, begging for at least a sip of its curing liquid.

I pop it open and raise it to the sky. "to you Daniel. Though you are in a better place, unlike me. " I say and tilt the bottom upwards. Feeling the sweet and burning liquid glide down my throat. I wince at the pain for only a second, then enjoying the sensation afterwards.

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I look at the bottle and laugh at myself as I gulp down the last swig. Numb. Blankness. Emotionless.

I grab my phone, fiddling with it a bit and open my messages.

Gray: hey how are you holding up?
           
           Hello? Misa?

          Text me back asap so ik you are    alright okay.  I love you.

I scoff at the messages and click the call button. Not even aware of my actions.

"Hello?" His raspy voice answers and I smile. " h-Heyyy." I slur my words and laugh to myself. "Is everything okay?" He asks concerned and laugh. " ye-ea of co-ourse." I burp a little and he is silence. " misa?" He asks. " yep that's me." I say and he sighs. " are you drunk?" He asks a bit angry and I laugh. " uh no-o Mr. Fancy pants." I giggle and he groans. " I'm coming over." He says sternly and I suddenly fill up with anger that I should have never felt. Because every thing I said wasnt true.

"Oh don't act like you care all of a sudden. Y-you leave for 2 years, and then all of a-a su-uden you want to stroll back u-up in here like you own the sh-shit." I slur and studder getting a bit dizzy. " Misa what a-" he tries to speak but I interrupt. " please, you don't lo-love me. You love my body. Its Not love its lust." I say and with that I hung up the phone, completely unaware of what i said.

Drunk and emotional is never a good mix.

Graysons POV

The words flowed off her tongue Like she has been keeping them up inside for so long. Her words slurring due to her drunken state. But the truth seems to come out when your drunk.. Right? I let her talk, yell at me.

But when she said I never and don't love her, and all I feel is lust, I felt that.

Just hearing those words from her, ripped my heart out. Because it's not true. And I know she never meant that.

I grabbed my phone and headed out the door to her dorm.

She drunk called me... And thats never a good sign.

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Sorry it's shit... Couldn't even write.

I was writing halfway, but then I heard that my favorite artist was shot and killed, and i lost inspiration.

But im okay now I guess, And I finished this chapter.

I hope you enjoy

Peace✌💜