horribly beautiful ✔️

hydra

you were the fuel
that ignited the fire

you were the ocean
that forced me back to shore.

you were the feeling of:
i'm going to live forever.

we once ate vinegar chips until
they crisped the edges of our lips,

we talked late into the night until i

watched your words float off like nightingales.

we did things that hurt because we believed that we had to.

i have tattooed your name on my skin
since you forced me to wear it each day.

it's nothing to be ashamed of.
one day, you'll be proud.

i promise.

i tied you in my hair

i wrote you in every poem

i played you in every melody,

and i chewed you into my diastema.

your anger reminded me of terrence fletcher

you played your heart and you felt the pain

you smashed a cymbal into the left side of my brain.

it never got easy,
but it got easier.

there was a butterfly hiding in your palms,

accompanying your honey fingers

and lips that smelt like licorice.

i asked you once
if you were satisfied with yourself.

the silence drew in and your breath grew ragged.
you spit out your medicine until your brain disintegrated

and you said you were fine,

because you knew that when the time to die would come

you would only wake up

and you would have time enough

to complete everything you once

could not.