Fear will not stop me

Dinner

Stef POV

"So you're telling me your going out with her? A girl. Monty's roommate? Like what the hell Stef. What did I miss something. And now, out of all the years I've known you, your telling me your GAY. Like really you like girls. Me, your best friend, well hell I don't know if we are even friends at this point, didn't know this big fact about you."

"Sarah, calm down. I know its a lot and I'm sorry. I didn't know how to tell you. I mean I just... I'm sorry."

"You are sorry? Really? That's all you have to say. Where have you been. I haven't seen you for week. Is she the one you've been spending all your time with? Behind my back? OMG I cant believe this."

"No I haven't. We went to lunch today. I've been busy at work. I already told you its been crazy busy since Captain left, And then, now, I'm having to deal with Mike.

I know that she is pissed but she has to believe that I would never try to hurt her and I never wanted to keep this from her. There were many of times I wanted to tell her especially when we were in college but I just didn't know how. All I could hear is my fathers voice, telling me it was wrong to be with girls, wrong to be me. And I know she has always had trust issues deriving from her dad. but I have to try to make her understand. She is my bestfriend after all. Flaws and all.

"Sarah I am really sorry. I never meant to hurt you or to think that this would get you so upset. I didn't know how to say the words. I have only confessed this to you. I don't even know what I want. Its just something about Lena. And I know that you have this grudge with her because of Monty but she nothing like her, well from what I know. you have to believe me when I say I'm sorry."

I look at her waiting for a response but she says nothing. All she does is grab her purse, her phone, and leaves the apartment. I knew she was going to take it bad, but not this bad.

I look at the clock and realize that I have about an hour to go before I have to pick up Lena. I grab my now cold cup of tea, down it and head to my bedroom. Things are scattered everywhere.

"Mother."

She must have been looking for something in here before she headed back to Florida. I shake my head and head grab all of my clothes and stuff them back in the draws. I then head to the closet and stand there looking at all of the uniforms in the there. Its been a while since I've been out, well on a date. having drinks with Sarah never constituted as going out seeing that I would always have to drive her home since her recent breakup with Monty. I pull out some leggings that I just bought and a long loose fitting shirt and boots, and jacket. I've always covered my body up. Another result of my fathers strictness. I was never really open to my body. And Mike didn't really seemed to care as long as we had sex 4 times a week, that eventually ending up feeling like a chore. I finally make it to the shower after feeling confident about my selection of clothes. I shave everything including nicely trimming my pubic area. I jump out of the shower and look at the clock on the wall. I have about 40 mins now and decide to clean up my room a bit while my body cools off from the hot shower. I pick everything up and start on my makeup. I look at myself in the mirror. I flatiron my hair to where it is flowing down my back Im ready. I grab my gun and my badge and head out of the door to pick up Lena.

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Sherris' POV

OMG I look at the clock and realize I only have about 30 mins to get ready. Monty has been talking my head off. I mean really. She knows that I'm going out with Stef and she said that she was cool with it, not that I needed her permission. I just didn't want her to have any surprises. I mean I am living in her apartment, for now anyway. One more week and I'm out of here. Thank God. I don't know how many more escapade's I can have with Monty and her women. And for her to be over Sarah, she sure is asking a lot of question that I don't know the answers to. "where is she living, is she doing ok, is she still mad, Is she dating anyone." Like why does she care. ha. Anyway I rush to the bathroom and jump in my now Luke warm water. Grateful that I already had my clothes out from earlier. I wash and jump out as I hear someone talking in the living room. I check my phone and see that Stef text me that she is on her way. I get dressed and finish my makeup. My hone rings and I pick up.