Lams One Shots

I Hope You're Somewhere Praying//Angst Fluff💔💙

Alexander's POV

Warnings!!!: Rape

You said you were my friend.

Oh how that was a lie.

You said you'd never hurt me.

Again, another lie.

You said you'd always protect me.

That might be the biggest lie you have ever told. The most dangerous person you couldn't save me from was yourself.

It was late. I was spending the night at your house. You were my second closest friend, but still very close. You were my best friend, Laurens, the man I was closest to was the love of my life.

I was reading, you walked in from the bathroom.

Clearing your throat you said, 'Alexander, I have something to tell you."

I looked up from my book. I looked up at you, in the corner of my eye the time read 12:34 A.M.

"What is it bud?" I questioned, very confused.

"Ummm, here it goes. I have liked you for years, I think I've fallen in love with you. Will you be mine?"

My mind blew up. How was I supposed to let you down? You were my best friend and I loved you like I would my own brother. You could sense my frustration.

"Thomas..." My heart started pounding, and I felt hurt by this. "Thomas, you're my best friend. I love you like a brother. I'm so sorry but I don't feel the same. Please don't take it personally. It's not you, it's me. I'm sorry." I wish I had just said yes. Life would've been easier.

Your face turned dark. Anger enraged in his face. He slapped me very hard across my face. He then came closer to me and pulled me up by my hair.

"Ow, ow, ow! Thomas why are you doing this to me?" I questioned.

"Alexander Hamilton, YOU FAT MOTHERF-----! How dare you? I poured my heart and soul into you, you f**."

"I'm sorry, I just don't feel the same way." I tried pleading with you.

"No you're not. You're in love with that asshole John. Come on babe, just let go of him and you can have me." He whispered in my ear.

"I don't want you." I spat, trying to squirm out of his grasp.

Apparently no was not an option to you. You threw me down on the couch. You were a lot stronger than me, you knew that. I was struggling. You ripped my clothes off. I kept screaming no.

I felt hopeless. I eventually stopped struggling and just let it happen, that was the only way I thought would make you stop. You didn't. You kept pushing it. My body was no longer mine. I went numb.

This went on for hours. I was alive, but I wasn't. My heart was beating, but my mind was other places. I wanted John, I needed him to get me out of here.

When you said you were going to bed, it was 3:55 A.M. I waited until you fell asleep to clean myself up and leave. I hurried out, then I ran as far as I could, until I was out of breath. Light snow fell on my face and I began to cry. I called John, hoping he could help.

Three rings and he picked up.

"Alexander, it's five in the morning why are you- Hey are you okay?" He was startled at my crying.

"T-T-Tho-ma-mas he-he r-r-ra-"

"Alexander, where are you?"

"Th-the c-corner of f-fifth and ma-maple str-street."

"I'll be there in five."

Five minutes later. He was here. He really did come to get me.

Without any word, John placed me in the backseat of his car.

"Alexander, are you alright?"

"No."
"Do you want to talk about it?"

"Later." I mumbled.

We arrived at his apartment, I was shaking and he had to practically carry me to the couch. He sat me down, sitting me up on the couch, him kneeling on the floor. He held me up.

"Th-thank you."

"Anything for you Lexi." He kissed my nose, I felt my face go red.

"Do you want to talk about it?" He asked gently. I nodded.

I took a deep breath,"T-Thomas an-and I were hang-hanging out. He said he had some-something to t-tell me. H-he said he li-liked me and asked me out. Wh-when I sa-said no, he got a-an-angry. He-he yelled at m-me and hit me. Then he-he-he." I started stuttering and crying.

"Shhh shhh shhh. Alex you're okay, you're safe. I won't let him hurt you again." He stood up and pulled me into a tight hug. 'Shh-ing' me in my ear anytime I let out a sob.

I pulled away from the hug. "He-he r-ra-raped me, J-john."

Anger flooded his face. I got scared.

"Jeffershit is gonna pay for this." He said getting up.

"John, ple-please don't leave me!"

He sat back down, I curled into his arms.

"J-john?"

"Yes, Alexander?"

"I-I love you."

Without any warning, John smashed his lips against mine. I kissed back melting into the kiss. He picked me up, carrying me bridal style to his bed.

"You have no idea how long I've been wanting to do that."

He placed me on his bed, crawling in himself. I placed my head on his chest, listening to his beating heart. We fell asleep like that for many hours.

Memories of that day still haunt me. You and I never spoke again. I hope you're somewhere praying...