Lams One Shots

Transgender//Fluff❤️💙

John's POV (5 year old)

I ran around the playground playing with my the boys. My long hair was puffy and put up so it wouldn't get in my way. I had a green puffy skirt on with a turquoise shirt that had a turtle on it. I hated it with all my guts. My mom forced me in it this morning.

I ran to Alex, my best friend who was at the top of the slide.

"Lexi wait for me!" I yelled to him.

I ran up the stairs and to the slide when I was stopped by Thomas Jefferson.

"Only boys are allowed up here!" He yelled. I don't know why but my heart started to hurt and I wanted to cry.

"Janessa is a boy. He's just trapped in a girls body!" Alex stood up for me.

"Whatever." Thomas said annoyed.

I ran up to Alex. "Thank you Lexi you're my hero." I squeal hugging him.

"How can I ever repay you?" I asked Alex.

"We can get married!" Alex yelled.

"Tomorrow at recess! I'll tell the sisters!" I gave Alex a kiss on the check and ran to the Schuyler sisters to tell them.

"Oooh! Can I put flowers in your hair?"
"Eww boys have coodies!"
"Wear your best school dress tomorrow!" All three said at once.

"Okay!"

The next day Lexi and I were married.

8 years later...

It was the middle of summer. Lexi and I were going to spend the week at his family's lake.

I smiled remembering the day back in kindergarten when we got married. But I also remember feeling trapped. That feeling never went away, but only got stronger.

When I was nine, I found out what the word transgender meant.

trans·gen·der
transˈjendər,tranzˈjendər/Submit
adjective
denoting or relating to a person whose sense of personal identity and gender does not correspond with their birth sex.

Was I transgender?

Yes

I lie awake on my bed. I look over at my alarm clock. It was pink and at the top it said 'Go Get 'em Girl!'

My room was purple. I begged for it to be blue. But no. 'I'm a girl' my mom would say.

No I'm not.

I had arrived at Alex's house. I have to tell him. I knocked on the door, tears started to flow from my eyes. I was terrified.

"Hey J! what's wrong?" He saw me crying.

I clang onto Alex.

"C-can we go to your room? I-I have something to tell you."

"Of course." We walked to his room.

"Janessa?"

"Lexi I'm not a girl! I'm a boy!"

"J-"

"You're probably gonna want to leave me now. But you should know. I want to be called John. I'm a boy Lexi!"

"John. That's okay. I love you any way."

He called me John. "Lexi-" He cut me off with a kiss. Our first kiss.

"You're you. And I love you for you. Boy or girl. You're my John. And my love. I won't ever leave."

I kissed him.

12 years later...

"John Laurens do you take Alexander Hamilton to be your lawfully wedded husband."

"I do."

"Alex you may now kiss the groom."

Brought to you by my dysphoria