I tried my best
To just pass the test
Even barely
Just to be here
But I'm not
When things get rough
I'm here
But its all pointless
I'm never enough
When you're hurt
Im there
But thats not good
After all that we've been through
I am expendable
Just a consumable
Used up and dried up
Will one more drop
Just spill the cup
Well I tried
I've smiled less
And mostly cried
But I carried on
It was painful then
But now its hell
You said you hope
Things would go well
But you dont
And they wont
I stray further every day
From that moment in time
When things could've gone right
But the choice to keep them
That was never mine
I just wasn't enough
Would I ever be
Not just that but free
Free to decide
Not needing to hide
The feelings inside
Or will I just die
Have I not done so already
I'm not enough even for that
It wouldnt move your glance
I guess I never had a chance
For just one honest smile
I'll just breathe deeper
And run just one last mile
I'm here to hear you lie
Lie right to my face
Then spread your wings and fly
I just cant keep up the pace
The truth , the lies
The way time flies
I melt away
In my inner self
So far from the day
When things still made sense
So far from the smile
That I used to bear
So far from the turns
That brought me here
The turns were closed doors
Doors I could not open
Doors I was not good for
Life felt like a maze
But with no joy in the middle
Just a mild haze
I always tried to find my way
Always walking towards that day
But time moves forward never back
Where could I go now
I just don't know
Its all pitch black
If you really care
Don't just stare
Come closer
And show me some light.
