Notes | KNJ ✔

S e v e n t e e n

*heyo*

The sound of feet tapping and the snow crunching underneath the boots was the only sound that could be heard along with the rustling of leaves. Couple of people still out in this chilly weather. Small snowflakes running down, caressing everything that came it's way.

"I want to tell you so much... But I don't know how to start? and what to say?" The man broke the silence, glancing at me time to time, hands in his knee length warm coat, while looking forward.

I just nodded but I realised he didn't see, so I hummed. "I will be patient and I will wait.." I slightly smiled in his direction, which is genuinely returned from the man.

We reached the place.

The old playground. Which he insisted to see and wanted to talk there.

He looked around taking in everything.

I wanted to ask so much.

Where was he? What was he doing? Was he okay? What happened?

But I kept quiet giving him his time. He was the one who adored this place and brought me here. Lots of memories, ranting about school and our life, it all took place here.

His eyes had that sparkle, I was so used to. It was just like he was having those flashbacks of old times. Him remembering every thing he did here. And in that moment I felt like it is all like before.

I have my best friend here with me. A lot of misunderstandings still need to be cleared up. But this time I will do whatever it takes to make it all better.

I will try, because someone once said that I am a strong girl. And I should try. There was no point of crying over your past, what I have right now is my present. And how to make it better then the past is what I have to figure out.

We both sat down on our old usual spot. It was as if we were back to when we were kids no worry about anything else then playing, sadness didn't exist for us back then. Only when we couldn't see each other, it was a torture.

"So, I think it's finally time to, apologize." He faced me gently taking my hands in his giving them a light squeeze. Eyes on me and all of his attention on me.

"Just, Let me speak, okay. I know you are sad, and you probably hate me but just let me say all I want then you can just curse me or slap me. Say anything I will listen. Okay." I nodded telling him to go on.

He took a deep breath giving me a smile " I am an Idiot! That's what I am! The biggest idiot to ever exist on this planet! You were always right when you called me an idiot or fool. I was such a fool that I believed that girl, she was cheating behind my back even when we just started dating. And when you told me... I treated you like shit. I never deserved you. But I am sorry okay.. I am so sorry I don't know what that girl did to me..." He quickly wiped off the tears that have formed at the corner of his eyes.

"When you were not coming to school, I saw her with someone else. And it broke me. I was hurt, it was like thousands of arrow pierced my heart all at once. But you know what I was more sad about?

That I didn't believe my own best friend. I chose her over you. My father was planning to send me to America, but I was holding myself back because of you. And when this all happened I accepted his offer. I had already lost my friend. I didn't have anything left. So I left. I wanted to meet you last time.. but I was too much of a coward and a fool. I couldn't do it." By now his eyes were all red, eyes like a mirror and his nose a pink colour.

I just held his hands trying to take it all in. A lot of things has happened in these past years that I don't know what to do anymore. I was angry, heartbroken when he left but now it's all gone. Not a single ounce of hatred.

Reality is this that I needed him in my life. A friend and after knowing what really happened I cannot let him go. So I just told him what my mind and my heart wanted to say "It's okay Hobie but," I bit my lower lips eyes wandering to our hands.

"But what?" He slightly panicked eyes searching mine.

"You are treating me with an ice-cream!" I cheekily smiled and jumped on my feet. Forwarding my hands for him to hold.

"Come on hurry up! We don't have time! Mr. Angry bird will close his shop!"

And he grabbed my hand.

Today, I found him. The one I lost he came and filled the colours in my black and white picture but.. there is still something missing.

Thank you so much for reaching!❤
Keep smiling :D