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T w e n t y T w o

"Well, I was pregnant at that time. We sent you there because I wouldn't have been able to handle two kids with your dad in office most of the time."

I stared at her nodding at her.

She continued "It was a girl, you had a sister. But..."

I jumped at the name of sister, I have always wanted a younger sibling but I had no clue that I had one.

"What happened to her mom?! W-what happened to my s-sister?" My voice cracking at the end. I tried to not break down at this moment.

Swallowing hard she said "we were coming to visit you and tell you about her, you dad... he was talking on a phone when a truck crashed into our c-car." Sobs escaping her mouth, she clutched her chest with her hand "I had a miscarriage. We lost her and your dad" she looks at the closed door of my father's office where he has decided to spend most of his time in.

"He still blames himself for all that. I blamed him too, without realising how he must have been feeling. We fought a lot and see where it has lead us. I realised it late."

"That I have to save my family. But the damage was already done. We had fallen apart already. We became so selfish that we forgot about how you felt."

"Then why didn't you tell me?!" I stood up, not able to keep up anymore. I thought I would be able to handle whatever it is. But, I never expected this.

She lifted herself on her feet holding me in her arms, mumbling sorry's and forgive me.

While we both sobbed into each other's arms.

***

It was finally time to confront my father I cannot even imagine how he must have felt, with all this guilt. I now know what was going on in his mind. He didn't know how he will face me.

I knocked on his door, hearing the shuffling of footsteps from inside.

A while later he peeks his head from the door. Leaving it open for me and sitting behind the desk.

I notice the gloominess of this room. Papers scattered everywhere on the wooden floor. Total darkness, the only source of light being the small lamp kept at side of the desk.

He just sits there reading some kind of document, his glasses sitting on top of his nose bridge.

"Dad..." I voice out. Finding the courage to talk to him.

He lifts his head up, quirking his brow.

"I want to talk to you." I said tucking my hair behind my ear.

He hummed tilting his head. I know what is going on in his mind now. Hundred possibilities of what I could ask. I haven't talked to him like this for I don't know how long.

He looks at me, with the same eyes that I inherited from him. My eyes doing the same.

"Don't blame yourself dad." It was all that he needed to hear before burrying his face in his hands.

"I didn't know how I would answer you. I failed as a father bunny." He cried. I walked over to him, hugging him.

"You are the best dad in the world. It wasn't your fault. I know we cannot have my sister back but I want my father back. I want my happy family back."

I am sorry if I wasn't able to convey the feelings well😔

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