Notes | KNJ ✔

T w e n t y

I waited for his reply for little too long. I don't know what I was expecting him to say. If I really wanted him to say anything.

"Namjoon.."

"It was a long time okay. And I know you must think that I was a creep. But..."

"But?" I tilted my head waiting for him to continue.

"But I really cared for you June. And it really scared me, to know that you will never return my feelings. But I completely understand now. It's okay that you didn't want to tell me, I get it and it doesn't change anything." He blabbered looking everywhere but not me.

"Do you still care for me?" I realised what I just said. Shaking my head "no I didn't mean to no.."

"Yes I do. I have always." He looked straight into my eyes. His dark brown eyes holding my gaze he moved forward placing his hand on my cheeks, smiling warmly at me.

The small touch sent jolts of electricity through my body.

It was hard to breath all of a sudden, tears trickling down my cheeks.

What is this?

He wiped my tears with his thumb leaving a lingering kiss on my forehead. "Don't cry. It's all okay."

I have not felt loved like this before. It was frustrating because I couldn't pin point what is exactly this feeling, these butterflies, this tingling feeling.

I am always smiling while I am with him. And what he just said now, what does he mean by that.

He pulled back still holding my face "I thought, it was just a small crush and I will forget about it after sometime but when I met you in the library all those feelings came back, stronger then before. And I realised that they were always there." His were words slowly sinking in.

But all I did was stare at him confused.

Is this what we call love?

Am I in love?

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Why do I feel like this when I am around you?

What is it that you are doing to me?

Am I in love with you June?

-KIM NAMJOON

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It's been two months since the whole Namjoon confessing to me. I told him about all that happened in the past few months. I cleared up the misunderstandings that I didn't know about the notes earlier.

We became more close to each other. And spend a lot time with each just talking about everything. I smile a lot more. I have bad days very rarely.

He also planned a surprise birthday party for Jin, I met my old friends there. It was all good to say the least. I surprisingly enjoyed it a lot.

But we still are unable to put a name on what we really are.

I care about him. I really do. And there is no doubt that I am utterly in love with this man. But still something is holding me back from telling him. He also hasn't spoken anything about this topic. So, I decided to keep it like that only.

That leaves us here walking down this park in this rainy weather.

"I still don't understand one thing." He reaches out for my hand holding it. Which I didn't mean even a little.

"What?" I asked kicking the pebbles on the way.

"What happened to you? That made you so... Miserable."

I stopped in my tracks taking back my hand from his " I don't want to talk about it." I turned and walked away from him.

He was quick to run after me grabbing my arm turning me to face him. "Don't run away from problems. I know there is something that is bothering you. And I will be patient with you. But think about this." He said caressing my cheeks.

"It's time for you to sort things out. Instead of running away from them"

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