Notes | KNJ ✔

S e v e n

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Hey Beautiful!
I saw you sitting quietly at the back doing your classwork
as I stare at you breathlessly
and aimlessly.
You are a beautiful girl and smart girl, who has so much potential.
Why are you hiding!?
Just please talk to me.

-Kim Namjoon

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Staring at the name alone in front of me makes me uneasy. It's a giddy feeling, something weird. My heart is racing.

But the more I think about those sweet and caring words written on those pieces of paper the more I want to know this person.

First I thought it was out of curiosity but the reality is that I am seeking for attention, a good attention, someone to understand me. Someone who makes me feel wanted. I want to feel that warmth. I am a human too who wants to be loved.

And when I read these notes that is exactly what I feel. I feel.....loved.

Weird isn't it sometimes people who aren't even a part of your life gives you something that even the most important people in your life cannot give you.

You are a mystery Kim Namjoon that I want to solve. I would do anything to find you.

Call me insane, creep or whatever that doesn't matter, I will do whatever I have to do just see you once.

And ask you what was wrong with you? Are you out if your mind?
This is all I want, all I wish for.

But maybe you wouldn't even remember me. Just like other people who completely ignored my existence and treated me like trash. I don't care about them though because they don't mean anything to me, but still it hurts that the people who meant the world to me just left me, just like that, so easily.

I work the day shift on weekends because I don't go to parties like everyone else. I like spending my alone, I am used to this now. Tapping my fingers anxiously on the table in front of me with my phone in one hand and the note in other.

Is it okay?
Should I call him?

Is it even a good idea. Most of the things that comes in my mind is completely absurd.

I mentally debating if I should press the dial button or not. The pros and cons all coming to my mind. There were no cons but..

Here goes nothing.
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"Hello"

"He.. Hello Seokjin"

*Heyoooo!!! I am back with another shitty chapter. I just think this story is not going anywhere but I am trying to move it forward, but as I am inexperienced in writing I am just going with the flow. I don't even know what am I trying to say..PLZ SEND HELP!!!

Thank you for reading!❤