(Loki x reader) The Evil One

13: Found him

Tasha spun in a lazy circle on the black spin chair in Tony's office. She had snuck me, her, Wanda and Bucky in.

The other sneak-alongs got in by themselves.

Tasha had agreed to search on our cameras for signs of where Loki went, but as of right now she was lazily spinning on her chair, legs tucked into her chest and head rested back, eyes on the ceiling. I sat beside her, my mind busily processing the fact it was asleep for five months.

Wanda played with her nails and Bucky played with my hair, Pietro was rapidly checking to we if anyone was coming, and Steve was almost asleep. Everyone but Tasha sat on the floor. We were all very bored, but the reason is interesting.

Clint had gone out to find him, and we were waiting to hear from him. Of course, Clint only did so because of the guilt trips I put him through.

"Hey doll, do you think you want to celebrate your birthday yet? You missed it. You're twenty now," Bucky whispered from his spot beside me.

I hadn't wanted to at first, I wasn't ready. I wasn't sure I had actually turned twenty or if my entire body was put on hold for five months; It certainly felt like it. But I think the compound members needed me to.  "Sure, Bucky."

He smiled a little, twirling my hair around his finger. "What color should we theme it?"

I looked at Tasha, who's face was lit up by the computer screen. She wasn't looking at me, but still slowly spinning while Wanda kept the chair moving.

"How about black?" I asked, picking at a spot on the carpet.

Bucky frowned. "Why black? Haven't you seen enough of that for the past five months?"

Pietro sat down again cross-legged on the floor in front of me. "It'll look like a funeral."

I nodded. "Won't it?"

Bucky looked worried. "Pick another color, please."

I leaned back onto his shoulder. "(Your favorite color)."

He smiled. "That's better."

Pietro still looked concerned. "Why black princeza?"

I twitched an eyebrow. "I don't know."

In truth, that was a lie. I knew exactly why, but they didn't need to know how contemplative my state of mind was on the idea of suicide.

I'd never thought about it before, and yet, after all this stress and pain I'd felt it more and more.

The computer beeped, and we all jumped off the floor, Pietro and I crashed into one another, and Bucky stepped on Steve's hand.

In all the commotion Tasha snapped at us to shut up, and we did, all of us frozen in awkward positions as she held up her hand. "Clint says....Loki is in...what the f.."

She trailed off as my heart pounded in my chest, threatening to burst out. "Where?" I dared to ask, tottering on my one foot that was on the ground.

Tasha swallowed. "Well, guys, pack your suitcases. We're headed to Germany. Again."

I fell over.

"So, Germany? Huh?" Bucky said, and in his tone I could derive that he was curious about what Tasha meant by 'again'.

I sighed and finished packing my suit into a bag. "Yeah, Germany. Loki fought with Cal and Tony in Germany back in 2012," I informed him. He nodded. "Oh." 

I threw my bag over my shoulder and followed Bucky to the Quinjet.

"Yeah, oh. Loki was captured and...I wonder what he's doing back there," I muttered purely to myself, but Bucky was listening. 

Bucky swallowed and nodded, stepping closer to me. "Are you sure it's Loki you love?"

I frowned at this question. "I think so."

Bucky looked at the floor. "I hope you know what you're doing, doll."

I climbed into the Quinjet after Tasha, who pulled me up and handed me off to Wanda, who made me sit down and 'rest a bit'.

Bucky sat next to me. "He's still a madman."

I grumbled nothing's under my breath and leaned to put my head in Bucky's lap.

Tasha was frowning at the window as the jet took off. "He's a madman, but he loves her."

I smiled a little. "Yup. Hey, Tasha? Could you tell me what happened...in Germany?"

Tasha swallowed, avoiding my gaze as she shifted her position. "We found Loki..not even bothering to hid..standing in front of a crowd of people. There were...projections of himself standing all around. Cap saved one old man from being blasted with Loki's staff....then they fought as people cleared out. Loki didn't stand down till Tony showed up."

I frowned almost as deeply as Tasha. "Why would he go back?"

Tasha licked her lips and looked down at the floor. Wanda took a deep breath. "He wants you to go there," Wanda whispered.