Burning Pages (Lil Xan Fan Fiction)

Final Result

I sat in the waiting room with Olivia at the Vet early the next morning waiting on Toby to come out of the Veterinarian's office. Last night he was limping around pretty bad so I felt that it was urgent and I needed to get him seen about quickly.

Olivia had explained to me in the car that she and Jess had gotten into another argument after that incident and she was officially no longer friends with her.

I had never had anyone like Olivia around. of course there was Austin but he wasn't a girl so he never really could relate to me like Olivia did. And from the looks of it he and I will never be friends again.

I began to have a headache again, but I figured that this was just from my stress and me overthinking things. I ran my fingers through my hair and gave a huge sigh.

"Hey, everything is gonna be okay." Olivia patted my hand and gave me a smile and I returned the gesture.

My mind had trailed back to Diego and I began to wonder how he felt towards me and how he felt towards Jess.....

My feelings for Diego grew strong and when I had seen him with Jess I felt like everything had fallen apart. Last night on the roof we were quiet, not much was said. We didn't even stay on the roof for hours like we usually do, we just sat in silence and he gave me a kiss on the cheek and told me goodnight.

Was he upset with me?

I didn't understand why Diego was acting like this, or maybe he's realizing that he has to choose me or Jess...what if he chooses her.....

"Cassie, you okay?" Olivia brought me back to reality.

"Um yeah I'm fine."

One of the Veterinarians came from the back and gave me a nod, assuring me that I could come in the back room. As I made my way to the room I began to feel as if I should have done more, I told Toby's mom I would protect him and that he was okay...why did I lie? This is why Diego hates me...this is why everyone hates me.

I blinked away the tears as my depressed thoughts crowded my mind. I hated myself for everything that I had caused......

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"Diego's. P.O.V"

I've been thinking too much....
help me...

I laid in the bed with my eyes darted directly at the ceiling...

The feeling of being trapped has haunted me for days now. Choosing between Jess and Cassie has been more stressful than I thought. I know Jess can be hard sometimes but that's only because of her fear of losing me. When I'm with Jess I feel happy, like I can have fun and let loose. I can go out to places with her and we could just kick it and have a good time. And Jess and I had been together for years and I couldn't just throw that away.

But when I'm with Cassie.....

That dark place that had once taken full control of me and made me loose my sanity was finally outshined by her bright light and beautiful smile. I wanted to make her life a living hell when I saw how happy she was, and  seeing her sad and angry made me feel like I had someone with me, someone to feel my pain...

But after our big fight I had finally seen that she was hurting too, she was just like me....lost and confused. She made me think and understand things. She made me feel as if I was never alone and my happiness would forever be eternal. I never wanted to let her go but I couldn't let Jess go either.