Faking a smile

Waking up

5 weeks later

*laurens POV*

My head was surrounded by talking and walking about. In the background was a beeping and it was so loud it ached my head. The talking sounded like arguing but it wasn't clear enough for me to work it out. I tried to open my eyes but my eyelids where so heavy and closed shut strongly. I tried moving my hands and arms but it felt like millions of weights were holding them down. My legs where unable to move an inch and I realised I couldn't even feel them. I had a sharp pain in my stomach area and went to clutch it then realised... I can't fucking move. The speaking came clear and they where talking about a life support machine.. Or turning it off. Wait.. Shit. LAUREN OPEN YOUR EYES COME ON TRY HARDER I YELLED TO MYSELF of course my In my head because I can't speak. My eyes suddenly felt lighter and I fluttered them open as my vision in blurred and I mumbled the first person I woke up too.

"Camila" I sounded so quite yet camila clearly heard me

"Lauren omg you woke up NURSE GUYS LAURENS AWAKE SHES ALIVE SHES OKAY OMG"

camila started crying and she hugged me so tightly.

"What the hell happened to me.."

ally ran forward

"Sweetie you've been in a coma for um 5 weeks, you got beaten, your injurys we're severe and we was going to turn your life support off today..."

"Luis did it.."

And that's when I remembered and all the mental pain came flooding back to me.

***

"Lauren we have to talk"

My mom sat down In the chair next to my bed and hung her head low.

"Okay,what's up?"

"How long ?"

"How long what..?"

"Self harming lauren. And also the hospital have curiosities of bulimia and anorexia.."

"Mom, I would of told you bu-"

"But nothing lauren, me and your dad are disappointed in you. Actually that's an understatement. I'm finding it difficult to call you my daughter. A daughter of mine does not feel this way about themselves. I thought I brought you up better than this. I can't Believe you'd do this to yourself? Why? Did I shout at you one time and you cut ? Was I not good enough to you ? Did I say no to something you wanted ? I'm done with you lauren, you can go back on your when the hospital says and I do not want you back home. I can't face you again lauren. Me and your dad are sorry that you turned out to be a fucked up freak. We really are. Sorry..."

my mom walked away but i didn't cry. I didn't dare show any emotion. I have no emotion left in me, it's been ripped out by three people that are supposed to be there for me the most. I'm worthless. I don't blame luis for trying to batter me to death I mean I don't know what I did but he's been there for me so much and I obviously disrespected him. My parents both hate me because they've found out my true self. I wish I would have died instead of pulled through.. UUGGGHH. Where am I even going to live ? I have nobody except for the girls and Demi now. Fuck my life.

***

"Lauren Jauregui you are able to leave now, we will pass on your health details to your personal doctor and then they can take it from there"

"Thank you for looking after me and having so much hope in my life. I'm very thankful" no I'm not I wish they would have let me die.

"Demi lovato is here to pick you and your four other friends up"

"Thank you so much bye!"

Me and the girls walked out to demi she ran up to me and hugged me but I couldn't re act as there was a massive swarm of paparazzi. We quickly climbed into to back of the limo and all say together. The girls tried to bring a happy atmosphere but they could tell it wasn't working. I had been disowned by my family because they never protected me from the world.

"Girls, we are going back to LA to my house, I have spoken to all of your parents.. Of course the tour for you guys was cut short and you have no idea where your life is going from here. Literally you have no plans for any interviews,concerts, or even plans to get home."

"So what's happening?" Camila looked confused

"All your parents gave me permission, only if you all want to, to live with me for a while?.."

"AHHHH OMG RESLLY WHAT"

all of us screamed in excitement at the thought of living together AND with Demi!!!!!!!

"We are going to See how it works out and if you like it, it can be your permanent home, obviously you can visit family whenever, it's all up to you guys though? So ... Yes or no?"

We all looked at each other thinking about our family's and how different out life would be..

"We think we ...