Faking a smile

Improving

*three weeks later*

"Lauren these past three weeks you've made BIG improvements im proud! I know you was supposed to stay in here for 4 months at the least, but weve decided to change that to 2 months because of your improvements"

i yelped with joy

"OMG THANK YOU CYA LATER!" I said running out of the room and into my girlfriends arms.

"KC I GET TO LEAVE IN 5 WEEKS?!" I screamed

"OMG LAUREN?! Thats so good !!! Im so proud of you!" She laughed

"So?! When do you get to leave?.." I asked nervously. Shes been in here for almost half a year. Today she was getting a release date for the first time.

"Its not good news, i get to leave in urm..

"Kc say it please im scared.."

"THREE WEEKS!!" Kc shrieked and we both jumped up and down

I grabbed her then kissed her lips. We are both going to be out of this place and together in 6 weeks. I'm SO exited.

~

Today is the first visiting day. It took alot for me to choose one person out of 6 so i went with Demi. I dont know if im ever going to be able to face Camila since what ive done. When i met Kc i completely forgot about camila and fell for Kc. I then remembered how i had led Camila on before i left, so now im basically cheating on her. I dont know how im ever going to tell her that we cant be something and i have a girlfriend. So im just going to avoid the situation until i have to face her.

I waiting behind the door as all the peoples friends and familys emptied into the room. Once they where all seated, i walked in. I searched the room for demi, eventually catching my eye on demi who was sat in the corner of the room. She wasnt alone. Next to sat, Dinah and Ally. But where was Camila and Normani?

I ran up to them all and we had a massive group hug. Ally began to cry at the sight of me. I hugged her then sat back down at the table.

"So?! HELLO!" I smiled at them

"Hi sweetie, how are you doing ?" Demi questioned with a big smile on her face.

"Its tough but im doing okay.." I wanted to suprise them about my release date.

"Well you have 4 months left and then you can be home !!!" Dinah danced

"Well you see i dont think ill be coming out in 4 months.. I got my release date today and well.. I come out in... FIVE WEEKS!!!" I yelled as dinah ally and demi where all taken back by my surprise

"Thats great omg that is really amazing!" Ally smiled brightly

"So.. Obviously im going to ask.. Wheres cam and mani?" I frowned

They all looked back at each other then at demi, hinting for her to explain.

"Lauren, well camila and dinah had some massive argument yesterday and camila stormed off out the house. She hasnt come back today but she was supposed to surprise you. Unfortunately manis nanna passed away, so mani needed to be there. I know you probably really wanted to see camz but-"

"What did you argue about?"

"It was stupid"

"Tell me.."

"I cant its silly.."

"Dinah tell me fucking now i need to know!" My voice became angry and powerful.

"Camila urm, she urm-

"Camila cut herself. Only once. Dinah walked in on her and like dinah tried saying she shouldnt get into this and that you dont need to come back to find out shes started what you're trying to end and she took it the wrong way and stormed out.." Demi interrupted dinah.

"Why would she.." My face was froze. I cant tell camila im in a relationship when shes struggling that much. Fuck.

"She said she cant deal with this stress without you and she feels she should be blamed for you being in here. Shes seriously depressed without you lolo" ally added making my guilt even worse.

"I have a girlfriend. Her names Kc.. We fell for each other but then i remembered what i said to cam before i left and i got into a sticky situation.."

"Well you have got two girls on your hands of course you're in a sticky situation" dinah giggled at her rude joke.

"dinah seriously! I cant tell camila because shes already a mess without me, but i cant break up with Kc because we are in love and i feel some sorta way with her.. We had sex and weve only known each other for three weeks ... I MESSED UP SHIT!!" I cursed banging my head into my hands.

"Lauren, i'll try and sort it. I need dinah and camila to make up first but please dont worry about this and let it affect your recovery. Stay strong princess i love you" demi smiled and walked out

"Love you" i said the dinah and ally hugging them goodbye.

I sure as hell hope demi sorts this out.

~

I walked out the room expecting Kc to be waiting but she wasnt so i automatically went to my room. My door was wide open and there was a lot of noise.

"SHE DIDNT FUCKING COME!" I heard Kc angrily screaming

I pushed past the people and over to kc where she was being held down my 3 staff members. She was kicking and screaming and shouting and crying and the staff tried to calm her down.

I pushed them off her and grabbed her into my arms. At first she struggled but then she calmed down,slowly muttering words.

"She didnt come" she whispered

"She didnt see me again"

"She didnt turn up"

"I wanted to see her"

"She didnt come lauren" she cried into my chest as i held her in my arms rocking her backwards and forwards. Eventually she fell asleep and i lay her down and turned of the light.