Hidden secret

are you breaking up with me

I woke up at 6 randomly but couldn't get back to sleep. I got up and thought today was the day I should have been off to the beach with everyone and ready for sundown. My bag still stood by the door packed but I wasn't going. I was emotionally drained from the previous day in the court room and wasn't ready to face the world. I picked up my sundown ticket sadly. I wanted to go but I couldn't face the world. I had told Ethan on the phone last night. It broke his heart. They were taking my car though as they wanted to keep a low profile for Jade, Tom and Rupert. Ethan said he would come and get the keys at 8. I applied a lot make up (I often did that when I felt insecure ),put my hair in a bun and pulled on some trackies and a hoody.

I went to the living room where my bottle of fake tan and Kiwi nail polish still sat. It was then I started to cry. Proper crying not just a couple of tears like I had recently, a whole waterfall my face was a mess due to the all the excessive makeup that had been carried away by me crying. To my horror I heard a knock at the door. Ethan was going to see me looking like this the trackies I didn't mind, the bun hardly desirable but the makeup down my face my eyes looked red and swollen. I walked sadly to the door and opened it.

To my absolute horror Jade and Tom were with him. It was bad enough Ethan seeing me look like this but Tom and Jade! Before I could think anymore Ethan pulled me in to his chest normally I would have hugged him back but I was to upset I just stood there. When he let me go I nearly fell over, I had been balancing on him. He looked upset to see me so sad. Jade looked sympathetically at me. Tom just looked worried. I handed over the car keys managing a half smile as I told them to have a amazing weekend.

"Are you sure you don't want to come?" Ethan asked sadly "it might take your mind of it"

"It's fine, go have a good time" I replied

"I can stay with you if you want baby" he said, concerned

"No, go have a good time all of you" I said "in fact forget me! Ethan you can get off with as many girls you like"

"Belle! Are you breaking up with me!" Said Ethan backing off in shock

"No" I replied genuinely " Ethan your my world I would never break up with you unless you want to break up with me, I am saying go have a good weekend it doesn't bother me what you do, do whatever you need."

To my absolute relief Ethan seemed to understand. "Baby, I don't need to get off with anyone I have you!"

I said goodbye and watched them go to the stairs. Tom turned around as he reached them telling the others he would catch them up. He was now going to come and yell at me for letting Ethan down and not coming. He reached me and gave me a hug a friendly hug nothing serious.

"Belle, your a lovely young lady. The only person who doesn't like you is yourself. Everyone loves you except for yourself. Belle I know you have struggled in the past, the scars don't heal mentally. You are a lovely person who has experienced bad things. The majority self inflicted by your desire to fit in.Promise me you will help yourself so you can see others helping you" he whispered

"Okay, I will try" I replied and with that he was gone. He knew me well actually. I stumbled back to the living room and fell asleep.

Ethan's POV

I span out of Belles parking space with the Clio. I was distort to see the left back seat empty. I hoped the call saying she wasn't coming was a dream. Seeing her upset had also hurt, I wanted her to be happy. If she was happy I could be happy. Tom could obviously sense my sadness so turned to me " Mate, I know it's hard seeing her in ruins but she told you she wants you to be happy she will be more sad to know you didn't even have a good time because you were worrying"

" I can't stop worrying. If it was Jade you would be worried sick" I snapped

"Woah calm down mate. Just try to relax" Tom added

"I am sorry" I apologised. "It's just umm I,didn't tell any of the others Belle weren't coming"

Tom just looked like it didn't matter but I got the feeling Jade understood. She spoke "I know what you saying Ethan. Millie and Esme will probably go off on one. Why didn't you tell them?" She said

"I thought Belle would change her mind." I replied.

"Oh" said Jade "just be prepared for them to go crazy"

She was interrupted by Tom suddenly yelling that red car up there that's Eddies! Catch up with it. I put my foot down we soon caught up with the car containing Eddie,Millie,Lauren and Matt.

I could see Millie looking in the car she could already see Belle wasn't in there. We were being followed by a silver car which contained Rupert,Esme and Dan. We were nearly at the beach. As we pulled in I prepared for Millie and Esme to go crazy. We parked the cars and started chatting I was waiting for them to go crazy and sure enough they did.

Esme's POV

How could he not have told us! Was he mad! I had hardly had the best car journey of my life as Dan gets travel sick. Thank god we pulled over to let Rupert drive. Now we had this. What is it with boys! The only one who had done something good was Rupert.

I headed for the beach holding Dans hand knowing it wasn't his fault he was sick but Ethan he was another matter. I was also furious at Belle for not telling us. How could she be such a heartless emotional wreck. I knew she hated camping but she liked sundown if she wasn't up for sundown. She was up for nothing. She was not fit to be alone I thought laying in the sand.

It brought back memories of when had gone to Felixstowe as teens and buried Belle in stones she had them every were down her top, shorts, in her shoes but we got some funny pictures. That was before she turned weird. She was a happy bubbly girl then. Now things were different. She was quiet and isolated but when she wanted to she was bubbly. Dan tried to kiss me but I pushed him away as I wasn't in the mood. He also smelt like sick.

Millie's POV.

Me, Jade and Lauren headed off to get ice cream. We walked along the long pier. The boys followed behind. When we went in the ice cream parlour I saw the bubblegum and thought of Belle. She had grown up a lot recently. She had changed. She was no longer the girl I remembered. The girl that could take a joke. She had lost that ability.

We all made our way back to the beach were there was a lot of shouting. I looked over to see what was going on when I realised it was ESME AND DAN. They had argued a lot recently. It was kind of sad. They used to be such a cute couple. They had changed to.

It made me wonder was it me who had changed. Maybe I no longer saw the world as I wanted to I saw it as it was.

Tom's POV

Everyone was so down today it made me question if today was the day! We sat huddled round the little fire we had made no one really spoke me and Jade spoke a bit. Millie and Eddie spoke. Lauren and matt made out but everyone else was silent. I wanted to do it now. I had to do it now I had been waiting for the right moment, this was hardly it but this was were I wanted it.

It was now on never. I slid down off the log we were sat on to Jades feet. The whole group were starring at me.

"Jade, you are the most perfect girl to me and have been for 7 years. You have made me who I am today. You are Timbers mummy. You have been my girlfriend. Will you be my wife"

In an instant she replied " I will" I kissed her. The proposal temporarily improved everyone's mood.

Soon after everyone went to bed leaving just me and Jade were we kissed in the sunset.

Belles POV.

I woke with a start. I felt a bit better actually but there was something I needed to do. I picked up the phone and called Liam. He answer my question with a yes and that was that.