Hidden secret

Screaming 1973

" Camping" I screamed " I hate camping". I was furious literally I mean explosive, I had been out for a meal with Leah and Zoe which had been lovely and was expecting a cute evening with my boy but he has just told me I was going camping in a week! Really in a field in Ireland! I was so pissed off, I was furious. I stormed out of Ethan's room past Tom and Rupert in the hallway. They called after me but I wasn't listening right now I needed my girls! I phone Esme but it went to voicemail, Lauren was out with Matt and Millie was working.

Looks like it's going to be Zoe and Leah. They had offered me to come back to there's but I had promised Ethan a night in so had gone back home but I knocked on the door of apartment number 225. Zoe answered the door she was bleach blonde and stunningly pretty. She was quite big built but by no means fat. She had stunning dusky blue eyes which had little sparkle. I was crying at this point and she offered me a hug with open arms. Leah a girl with jet black hair back combed into a messy bun she was slim but very shapeless and a lot less prettier than Zo but she was a lovely girl and she patted my back.

"Shhh Belle" whispered Leah "it's okay what's up baby, have you broke up with Ethan? If you have he can have a had kick from me"

"No" I stammered "but we may as well have done! I spend 4 months with him for him to turn round and take me camping on my fucking 21st" I took the stick of Zo and lit it. They looked at me sympathetically. I inhaled the smoke and realised how unhappy I had become. I then looked around and for the first time in 4 years I saw the world. I saw happiness, I sank to the floor. "Belle are you okay?" I heard Leah scream

"It's only marry. You have had it before" squealed Zoe.

"I know" I answered "please can I have some of that Caribbean twist" I pointed to the bottle. Zoe relieved I hadn't died past me a cup which I thanked her for. Suddenly the monitor was bleeping Ellie was crying again. Ellie was Zoe's accidentally baby. I had to tell the others. Millie and the crowd were meant to come round when Millie was finished. She would be finished by now. I thanked the pair for there support we had a deep chat earlier on and now I was happy. I took one last marry and left the flat.

I danced down the road cheerily. I was sort of screaming 1973 as I walked up the path towards the door so everyone knew I was coming so ran to the window. I was high as a plane and drunk as a wasp in champagne but I was happy I had to tell the others. I could see them in the window so as I tumbled about I waved cheerily.

Ethan's POV

"Is she pissed" asked Jade

"I think so" giggled Millie

" what the fuck is she playing at" screamed Esme

" she's got a fag in her hand" I muttered "she said she quit!"

"Looks like she lied about that buddy" whispered Rupert gently

"She's got no shoes on" exclaimed Jade

" Probably lost them" laughed Rupert as we watched her tumble over again.

" Why is she so drunk at 11 O'Clock, guys that not like Belle" added Eddie looking concerned

" well Belle likes to go a bit over the top at times" mumbled Dan

" no she's not that stupid! She promised me a romantic night" I screamed anger raging in me. I had to tell them " I told her about the camping she stormed out"

"Sounds a bit more like Belle" teased Dan

"Hoping for romantic night, how cute" laughed Rupert

" Belle, romantic? That drunken wreck romantic" joked Matt.

"Look I don't need your input you idiot" I snapped

"Hey calm it Ethan" Tom muttered

"Just because you have it easy Jade is just normal and cute" I yelled

" excuse me, Belle is perfectly normal to. She has seen a lot, lost a lot! She's suffered. She dosen't deserve you Ethan. She is obviously unstable, I know your angry at her for smoking but were all so stupid and unobservant! Look she's in a crop top, the scars there GONE! She's clean! Fucking hell I am proud of her even if your not" yelled Millie and with that she ran toward's Belle.

Eddie followed her, followed by Tom, Jade and Rupert. I sprinted after them to where the singing girl stood. " That's not Backy Ethan. That's marowarna! She's high"With that she fell to the floor. I scooped her up and carried her inside. What possessed her to do this. Why had she been so dim! I carried her carefully up to my room and tucked her in bed. When the phone rang, I heard someone go to answer it so I held Belles hand a comforted her she was now crying softly.

" Ethan" she muttered " I am so sorry about camping but I don't want to go. Leah, Me and Zoe are going to go to London for a weekend sorry. I don't want to be camping on my 21st baby" I didn't know what to say. La was meant to be a surprise but if she wasn't going to come "camping" with us she wasn't going to get back on a plane.

" no I think you will like the camping" I whispered expecting a protest but she was asleep. I crept down the stairs to where the others sat. I explained her plans. I was confused by the fact that Esme had expected this but what were we going to do.

" tell her it was a trick, tell her you have booked a little cottage in Ireland" suggested Rupert.

"No" put in Jade everyone looked at her. " if I was Belle and I finally wasn't cutting I would not want to go back to the place it all started"

"I have got to say I agree" muttered Tom

At breakfast It was all set Millie would tell her we were going to her house in Shetland. We would all nod in agreement. When Belle finally came down the stairs at mid day she looked a state. She had been sick several times and she looked half asleep as she walked in and headed for the cupboard with paracetamol in. She had pyjamas on which I had dressed her in for last night she was makeup less and had her hair everywhere but she still look hot so I walked over and kissed on the shoulder and told her how beautiful she was.

Belle's POV

What had happened I struggled to reach the little box of pills. My head was spinning like crazy, I felt sick and faint. I scrambled about with a cup of water. I felt worse when Ethan said I looked hot. I should probably get him checked mentally. I felt myself spin to the floor but Ethan caught me and wrapped his hands round me he guided me to the table where I saw everyone and just broke down. What had I done. I could feel them all staring at me I wanted to be engulfed by the floor.

Breakfast was something I couldn't manage right now so I sat and gazed into space but I think it looked like I was staring at Rupert. After I finished crying my eyes out I fell asleep on the table. I had been so stupid. 1973 circled around my head but I didn't know why. I felt I had let everyone down. In many respects I had all because I didn't want to go camping I walked onto the balcony were I sat looking across a field. I was crying with the pain of my life now.

I was meant to be getting my tattoo today, I better phone up and cancel I thought. I hadn't told anyone about it yet so I guess I should ring on my mobile. I slurred the words to the women who kindly rescheduled it for tomorrow. I also was meant to be dying my hair but that could wait I guess.

Rupert came and sat with me. I swayed gently like a leaf in the breeze. I felt so silly. I was shaking it was quite cold. I noticed the others come out and stand around me I felt trapped like they were suffocating me. I walked to the end of the balcony were I sat on the little bench. The pond underneath was cute and appealing to my eyes, I watched a fish swim by. A voice in my head was telling me to come clean.

" I am going to go home" I began " I have waited for the scars to heal and they have and I see happiness now but I can't handle what I see. I want to run away far away. I want to isolate myself from who I was and who I am. I don't belong here, I mean look at you all. You all have money and are rich and pretty. Come on Ethan you can do better than a stupid little chavvy girl. I am here on a luck basis. I am not funny and kind like Rupert, sweet and caring like Tom, Stunning and happy like Jade, Not bubbly and pretty like Esme or Loaded but fun like Dan. I am also not cute or smiley like Millie or wealthy and popular like Eddie. Lauren is beautiful and rich and Matt has a good job and is funny. You are hot, gorgeous, funny , bubbly, smiley , exciting , happy , caring and dare I say a amazing kisser. I am just a chav I smoke marry, I am ugly as hell yet you date me. Come on you can do so much better without me. Go on get a girl worth your time"