Hidden secret

P.S I love you

I jammed by headphones in my ears trying to forget the thoughts that circled my head. It was only a half hour flight but still half hour of thoughts. I hated these thoughts. They made me doubt. They made me wonder. They made me question my existence. There was a reason I was not that close with my parents. What was I doing I was going away from were no one knew to where that was all they knew.

Ed Sheehan 'small bump' came on I couldn't face that right now so I waked on some Swedish house mafia and gazed out the window wondering if I was doing the right thing leaving Birmingham. I had loved it there and I was going to miss everyone so much. Why did I kiss Tom! Why! I had let him down and myself. The plane swooped through clouds were it was raining. The rain looked pretty. This is the highest I would get. I could never be an angel. God damns those who are fake.

As we passed through the rain. It was almost like the only thing I regretted was coming home. Earlier I had been so sure that I was doing the right thing, why was I questioning now. Oh wait yes I had remembered how I came to this world. I could feel hot tears in my eyes but then my brain flicked back to Hayden. Hayden was one of my 3 brothers the one I was probably closest with. He was 4 years older than me he was 24. He had a girlfriend named lil. Me and him used to go swimming and stuff but then I got older. He was now a working as a swimming instructor.

Sam was 25, he was a lot of fun to be around and had Daniel his boyfriend. He met Daniel through work. He worked at the biscuit factory. The advantage to the biscuit factory was we got free biscuits! Josh was 26 married to the lovely Daisy. She was very pretty and had a cute personality. She was the only non family member who knew my big secret. Mum tried to forget it but I couldn't.

The plane swooped gently down. I felt my heart lift again. I was home! I was home! I walked off the plane collected my bags and went to the animal section were I picked up buttons. I headed out and looked across the airport. There they were. Here goes I thought.

Ethan's POV

I pulled up outside Boxwood flats. We had decided the whole group should come to speak to Belle. We all headed up the stairs to were Esme tapped the door. There was no answer.

"Maybe she's taken Buttons for a walk" she said as she unlocked the door and seeing buttons lead gone. We all headed inside and Esme invited us to the living room. Most of them had never seen the flat before so looked around. Everyone was intrigued by how small the flat really was. Tom picked up a small picture of Belle, Esme and Millie on horses a long time ago.

"Didn't know Belle rode" Tom said

"I have to admit I didn't either" I replied I looked at the picture and smiled I had to get her back.

Millie had gone to the kitchen a few moments earlier. She ran back in the room holding a letter. She had tears in her eyes. "What is it Millie?" Cried Eddie hugging her and gently pricing the bit of paper out of his hands. He looked at it " oh shit" he said passing the bit of paper to Esme.

Esme recited Belles note. I felt like there was a hole in my heart. Without thinking I ran out of the room and into her bedroom her bed was still there I laid down and just cried. I had lost her forever! She was gone. I heard the door open. It was Rupert.

"Mate are you okay?" He whispered confused by my crying

"No, Rupert. I have lost her forever. All because I wasn't willing to forgive" I sniffled

"I thought you would be crying because she kissed Jake as well" he said unsure what else to say

"I had rid myself of her then it dosen't surprise me. She needed a shoulder to cry on. It should of been mine but I was to stupid to realise" I screamed. I heard Tom walk in.

"I am so sorry Ethan, this is all my fault" he whispered

"It isn't" I replied "honestly Jade forgave you I should have forgiven her"

"Hey you and Jade are completely different you have been hurt before Jade hasn't" he replied softly

"I didn't forgive her because I always felt she had a secret and I thought she had been cheating on you since when you met her" I squeaked "then I remembered you saying after I had dropped her off at the police station she was a good catch and stuff"

"Hey, I wouldn't cheat on Belle because I wouldn't hurt you or Jade. Belle was like my sister. She once told me I was like her brother. She is a very attractive girl but she's yours like when you told me you had a bit of fun with a picture of Jade" he laughed

"I see" I replied finally seeing eye to eye with Tom "but how do I get her back"

"Phone her tonight" Tom replied

"What if she no longer loves me" l questioned

Tom and Rupert exchanged glances. Rupert decided to tell him the truth " mate she put P.S I love you in your bit of the letter"

They were right sitting here wasn't going to win her over again I had to call her. I picked my phone up but she didn't answer so I text her.

Belles POV

Dad looked the same but slightly aged slightly drawn. He looked happy to see me. He was embarrassed about what he did 21years ago. I knew he was. Mum had more hair than when I had left and I knew she tried to forget her role in the events that caused my birth. She looked a lot better now happier. My brother Sam had cut his long brown hair off at last and looked quite cute in geek glasses and the new short hair. Josh looked the same as always. Daisy was pregnant! They were having a child I was going to be a aunty! Aunty Belle. Hayden pulled me to his chest and hugged me tightly as soon as I got near. " you look like my sister but when did my sister get so beautiful"

"Oh Hayden" I smiled "you haven't changed at all your as perfect as I remember you"

"When did my little girl turn into such a pretty young women" said my mum looking me up and down

Daisy hugged me awkwardly trying to avoid the bump. "Your now a aunty Belle"

"Isobel haven't you grown up" murmured Dad

As we drove home the cottage was just as I had remembered it. It was painted white with a thatched roof and stoned path to the door. I followed the others inside were even the layout was identical. I went into the living room were some old photos still stood. One caught my eye. It was of Me,Josh,Mum,Dad,Hayden,Sam and Caitlin. Caitlin was my sister. She had died when I was 13. The memory I had been trying to forget came back to me. I gulped I was about to cry.Caitlin was the reason I was born. I was made to fit like a custom suit. I was supposed to be Caitlin's saviour. Yes that's right, I was the mistake. They genetically engineered me to match to save Caitlin's life. I was never intended to reach my 21st. My parents raised me like a pig for slaughter. I was the saviour sibling.