Hidden secret

I had always wanted to fly

I went to make the leap. I prepared to fly. I had always wanted to fly when I was a kid. Now was my chance. I should never had been born. Had oh so darling Caitlin been born without illness they would never have bothered with another child. Yet my mums wish to save her only girl broke my heart. I had to go.

I had lost my heart in this spot. I lost my faith. I lost everything here. I had found myself tonight. It almost felt like Dee was looking down on me. I wanted to be with the girl who took my hand and showed me how to turn from a geeky girl to a rebellious teen. She turned my life around. I was always the unpopular kid at school, well when I was there anyway. I was always scared of Dee and when one day she got made to sit next to me in physics I wanted to disappear yet somehow we got talking and she changed me. I owed that girl a debt.

My parents loved me I would be lying if I said they didn't but Hayden had worded it right, Caitlin was there everything. They cared for me and raised me. Nursed me after operations but I would have been fine had they not sent me in for them. They broke my heart when they told me I was a saviour sibling I couldn't forget that.

I was about to do it when it occurred to me that I was being silly ending it were it broke I should end it where I was happiest. I knew where that place was. I had to go back there, I would end it but end it in Birmingham. Boxwood flats had my heart, it could have it. I stepped gently off the mountains.

It suddenly occurred to me that I had always believed in destiny. The idea of cheating destiny sounded quite nice actually kind of forgetting my childhood. I was never meant to make 21 but I could! I could do what ever I wanted! I was free! I vowed to put away my blades. My life was about to change I would go back home. If the others would have me anyway! Birmingham was my home I had been so stupid. I would come clean. I would tell the world. I composed myself when I had a sudden urge to write a poem.

I got out some paper and wrote. I wrote my feelings. It made me feel better I felt at piece with the world now no longer alone. My life just clicked back in to place. I had to text someone to tell them how stupid I had been. Who would forgive me first I wondered. Millie instantly sprang to mind. I would text her.

Millie's POV

I had become increasingly worried Belle had done something stupid, lord only knows why she was so perfect. She had ignored all my texts and calls. If I wasn't worried I would be fuming with rage so I guess worry was best. I presumed if I ever saw her again she would need support not to be shouted at for running away.

She was a week soul who had become lost in this mad world. I hoped I did see her again although I doubted it very much. Belle was a funny girl but I always felt she had a secret. Something she hid from the world out of shame or fear of being judged but I knew when I found out what her whole life was going to click into place.

I was laying on the sofa watching The notebook when I heard my phone bleep. I was about 3 quarters of the way through the film the person could wait 40 minuets. I watched as the film rattled to a close. I then thought about answering my phone. I got up and walked over to where my purple blackberry sat. The screen lit up it read one new message belle. BELLE I screamed quickly plugging in my password and opening it:

"I have been a fucking twat if you can forgive me I am getting back to

Birmingham tomorrow xxx"

I screamed with absolute joy, which caused Esme to wake up and run to see if I was okay. I showed her the message and she smiled. We were both smiling. "Should we tell the others" Esme asked

"Yes" I screamed dialling Ethan's home number.

"Millie" I heard Tom say "are you alright?"

"Yes thank you. How is Ethan now. Is he eating? Has he got out of his room yet?"