Always You

Jimin's Suicide Note

  it was a pretty day. that day. when spring had finally started. the sky was clear and flowers were blooming everywhere. i was out alone. simply running around the empty streets. a gang of boys cornered me in an alleyway. one of them pushed me down. i skinned my knees for the first time. all i was doing, was catching butterflies. they all took turns insulting me. i sat there silently, tears rolling down my cheeks. there was nothing i could do. then, there you were. you were about as tall as the shortest member of the group—deeming you much taller than the boys our age. still, you remained confident. you walked right up to the leader of the group and ordered him and his group to stop harassing me. he laughed in your face. then, he decided to slap you. right across the face. you didn't even flinch. all you did was look back at him, then, you punched him in the nose. his nose bled so much. they wanted to hurt you, but the leader ordered the group to leave you be. once they all left, you offered me your hand. i wiped my tears and allowed you to hoist me up. i tried to leave. but, you called after me. 'what? no 'thank you'?' you asked. i was frightened. 'thank you,' i said quietly, bowing my head. i thought you were done talking, but then, you asked for my name. i'm not sure, maybe it was when you saved me, but, ever since then, i trusted you fully. i felt in my heart, the fact that you would always be there for me. and i, you. what i'm about to do—or what i've already done—will change that. it took me some time to tell you that i was an orphan. that day, it was my first time going out into my new home city...i love my mother. she's the only family i have, besides you. you're all i've ever needed...i'm sorry. i know i'm selfish. i'm sorry i decided to do this. i love you, taehyung. as my death ensues, i leave all that i own, to you. i don't have much. i can't give you riches. all that i have, is my heart. if you decide to, you can sell my things. they might give you enough money for food or even a proper computer. i hope you have a better life without me in it. all i want is you to be happy. if you get the chance, tell my mother i love her. please achieve more than i ever could. you're a beautiful person with many talents. live a better life than i did. for me. promise to be happy. goodbye, tae tae.

   -jimin