I
Hate
Bathrooms
At the fair:
Friend: "I have to use the bathroom real quick."
Me: "Okay..."
Bladder: please
Me: no
Bladder: please
Me: no
Bladder: I'm begging.
Me: I refuse.
Friend: "That bathroom was actually really nice."
Me: "I refuse."
Pool:
Family: "Yay lets go!"
Me: "Um."
Family: "What?"
Me: *looks back and forth* "How do I get in?"
Family: "The girls bathroom?"
Me: *planning on watching everyone swim because bathing suits are gender conforming and I refuse to subject myself to that cruel and unusual punishment* "But..."
Someone from family: "Are you really gonna make someone sit out here with you? You have to use the bathroom some time."
Me: "..." *hangs head*
~two minutes later~
Family: "Why do you look so depressed?"
Me: *bangs head on picnic table and stays that way for hours*
School:
Eight hours of legitimate flipping hell because who can hold it for eight hours when the only unisex bathroom is across the school and you have three minutes between classes.
So basically anywhere besides my toilet at home is a living flipping hell.
I totally don't think about bathrooms any time we go somewhere public.
No way.
I
Hate
My
Body
My chest is too obvious.
I don't pass.
My clothes aren't as neutral as I want.
Do I look girly to everyone that sees me?
Am I a failed attempt?
Are people judging me for trying and failing?
I
Hate
People
Stranger: "Excuse me ma'am."
Me: I can't breathe because my chest is bound
Stranger: "Hi ladies how are you today."
Me: *wants to scratch their eyes out and scream and cry like a child* *tight smile* "Fine. Thank you."
I
Hate
Functioning
Body: I'm hungry
Me: I don't care
Body: I'm stressed lets eat
Me: I hate you. *opens ice cream container* I hate every flipping thing about you. I wish I didn't have to care about you.
Body:...
Me: *shovels ladels of ice cream into my mouth* *plans on running the calories off later* I hate you.
I
Hate
Me
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Be true, stay you ❤❤
~Day Dreamer~
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Living the Non-Binary Life
RandomMy maybe-not-so-horrible-anymore-right-now life. I attempted to add as many tags as I could when I tried to think about details of myself I wanted to mention. I'll keep it as clean as possible and only mention the more...triggering content only as a...
