Wait For Me / Joshler

Dead Night

September 7, 2017

12:37pm
I had finished all my morning classes. The day went slow. The closer it got to 1pm I could feel myself get anxious for no good reason. It was Thursday today which means there's MKC (mario kart club) I've been looking forward to this day since that Friday in the rain. I didn't know if it was because Josh was going to be there, I didn't know if it was because I was just genuinely curious of the club. I was holding onto the club's pamphlet shaking, maybe even sweating. Second floor, room E7. I wasn't ready at all. I have never joined a club in my life. That might be a stretch though. I've been sleep deprived since Monday, I couldn't get myself to sleep. I couldn't stop thinking about this day the thought made me terrified. I haven't slept in days, I look like shit, and on top of that I'm also homesick I barely have eaten.

Today was actually hot, typical California weather. It had rained all weekend, even Billie didn't want to go out. People seemed happy walking along the streets in such nice weather today. Jenna had called me earlier this morning to see how I was doing. How are your classes? she'd ask in such monotone voice I didn't recognize her at first. I replied with the same tone, I said they were fun and that I've met a few people. Then after few minutes of small talk she'd hung up leaving me to drown in the silence of the apartment. Why did she call me?Maybe she felt pity for me. Or maybe she wanted to catch up on a few things, it's not like she cared at all.

The door to the computer lab was slightly open, I knocked on it while opening. I was greeted with cheers from people in the far couch facing a wide screen TV placed on the wall to the left of the room. I walked in shutting the door behind me. There were tables with computers and rolling chairs assigned to each computer, a few posters about staying focused and some art works made by students of previous years. The lab was typically small, it looked more like a closet compared to the other ones downstairs. I shuffled over to the couch where everyone else was. There were just about ten people here, including Josh and Sam. Josh was sitting on a bean bag in the corner, he looked pissed. I wonder who put a stick up his ass. Sam looked up from his phone and gave me wide smile. Telling me to sit next to him.

"Bro, thought you wouldn't come." He punched me in the arm playfully after I had sat down. The dude sitting on the floor looked up from the screen towards me.

"We haven't had anyone new in a while, glad you're here," he said dropping the controller. "Names Nathan," he smiled at me. I smiled back.

Sam stood up rubbing his hands together moving into the middle on the room standing on a chair, waving his hands to get our attention. "Friends, welcome back. It has been a while since I've seen you all. We rarely get newcomers but this year our sales strategy has worked." The room laughed at his little 'speech' he was giving. "So let me introduce Tyler." He waved at me to stand next to him. I did. I looked around. They all looked interested into what I had to say. I didn't say much. I just said hi and waved . What was I supposed to do, expose my entire tragic life story? Too soon. I glanced over to Josh, he had this gaze on me that didn't leave, it sent chills down my spine. No one else seemed to notice the look he had on me, not even sam. He knew what he was doing to me, with that glare; with those eyes; with those lips. Still rude of him to do that. I'm so gay. Stop.

We must have played at least twenty rounds until it finally got to the two contestants. Me and the one and only Josh. He was pretty good at MK himself, he said he's been playing since a young age just like me. He didn't brag about his skills like I expected him to, he stayed humble throughout. When the second lap came around we threw in some insults to spice the round. We were inches away from the screen, my eyes would burn off if I stayed fixed on it any longer. One lap left to go, half the people in the room were sweating, screaming at me and josh. I was shaking, my hands almost slipping off the controller. This wasn't nerve wracking at all. If I were to loose, my reputation would go down. Not like I cared but being seen as the champion on my first day here would be nice. Josh was tailing me, I was literally fucking screaming at this point. I didn't want to let him win.