Reasons||m.c.

fifteen

fifteen//

I felt depressed. Cheated. Foolish. Stupid. Used.

I felt everything I was hoping this move to Australia would take away.

"Jade?" Tanner called through the door.

"Yeah?"

"Can I come in?"

I didn't respond, so he let himself into my dark room.

"What's wrong?" he asked, sitting next to me on my bed as I buried myself in a shroud of blankets.

"Everything," I muttered. I rolled over and stared at him through the dark of my room.

"Wanna talk about it?"

I shook my head, "No."

'Don’t bottle things up' the little voice in my head spoke.

"Actually... Yeah."

I scooted over and rested my head on his lap.

"I told the boys about Kai," I said. "Well, they all know except for Calum. And we were hanging out today and they just kept making jokes."

"Jokes about what?"

I couldn't tell him this story without including all the details. So, I told him. I told him about Michael and I flirting and making out and saying we loved each other and talking about dating in the future. I told about the other night. Kicking Michael out, getting drunk, almost being raped. I told him about the sex jokes that Ashton and Luke made. I told him everything and how I was feeling about it.

"They didn't mean it that way," he said. "Ashton and Luke wouldn't hurt you like that. They're just being teenage boys. But I know this is all hard for you... I mean almost being raped. It honestly pisses me off. All of this. You're my baby sister and I want you to be happy and safe."

I smiled up at him.

"I think you need to tell the boys what you told me. All of it. I mean, maybe leave out the part about Michael. That's none of their business. But tell them all about the rape, about Kai. I know you told them already, but I'm guessing you just gave them the general idea of what happened."

I nodded, "I just told them he spread rumours and got me to sleep with him and broke up with me."

"Well, tell them again. Tell them... More in detail. What he said about you. I know it's hard to, but they'll understand just how much he hurt you. And same with you almost getting raped. I mean, there probably aren't as many details but at least they know what happened. And tell them how you feel about the jokes. They'll understand and they'll be more sensitive to it. They'll stop and they'll watch what they say."

"Thank you, Tanner," I spoke, sitting up and hugging him tightly.

He smiled and kissed my forehead.

The door to my room creaked open and Lily and Wesley ran in and jumped on the bed, crawling onto our laps.

"Hey," I laughed, wrapping my arms around Lily's dainty waist and pulled her close to me while Wesley stayed on Tanner's lap.

"What are you guys doing?" she asked.

"We're talking," I smiled at her.

"Can we join you?" Wesley asked.

"Of course," Tanner laughed, holding Wes close to him.

I smiled and look at my three siblings whom I loved and was glad to have. They always brought me up when everything was going bad.

Maybe everything would be okay.