Reasons||m.c.

sixteen

sixteen//

I didn't talk to the boys for a few days. They had called and text but I ignored them. I was taking Tanner's advice and I was going to talk to them and tell everything; just not right now. I needed some time to blow off steam.

"Jade," Tanner said, walking into my room. I looked up at him as I put on mascara. "You can't keep ignoring them."

I sighed, "I'm just trying to blow off steam. And work up the courage to tell them everything."

"You'll be fine," he said. "Go today."

"Okay... I will."

He smiled at me, "Good."

I called Michael soon after.

"Hey," he breathed into the phone. "Why haven't you been answering your phone?"

"We need to talk. You and all the boys."

"Okay... Is something wrong?"

"Michael I just need to talk to you guys."

"Where? And when?"

"We can meet at my house. Whenever you guys are ready... Just come over. But probably soon."

"Okay. Do you need me to tell the other boys? We're all hanging out at Luke's house right now. Spent the night last night..."

"Okay. I'll see you soon."

I hung up and sat on my bed, grabbing a pillow and cuddling it close to my chest.

Michael text me half an hour later saying they were out front of my house.

I went downstairs as he knocked on the door.

I slowly opened it and smiled weakly at the four boys, letting them inside.

“Let’s go upstairs,” I said quietly.

My parents weren’t home and the little ones were at school.

My first period didn’t start until noon. I only had 2 classes today. Calum and Michael had both officially dropped out, but it didn’t matter because school for them already got let out, meaning Luke was free of classes.

Ashton and I still had another painful week.

“So, what do you want to talk to us about?” Luke asked, sitting on my bed. I sighed and scooted up, leaning on the head board.

Michael sat on my left and Calum on my right. Luke next to Cal and Ash next to Mike.

“I need to tell you all… everything. I’ve already told you guys about Kai and the other night when the guy tried to rape me… Well, all of you but Calum… But I want to really tell you everything. I want you all to know what happened and why I’m sensitive to this topic and that’s why I left Calum’s place the other day.”

“I thought you had a project to work on,” Luke said.

“No, that was made up. I was really mad and upset because of what you two were saying.” I pointed at Luke and Ashton.

I told them everything. In full detail.

“And, I want to tell you this, because I want to trust you guys. I mean, you’re my best friends. I want to trust you guys. But what Luke and Ash did the other day… It made me not want to trust you.”

“What exactly did we do?” Ashton asked.

“After you three found Michael and I, you kept making jokes. Sex jokes. And I had told you both about Kai already. It was just hurtful because you guys knew how much he fucked up my life and you knew how hurt I was by him and you knew I didn’t want to trust people because they just made jokes about me. You knew all that, and then you guys started making sex jokes and it just hurt. It made me feel like you guys were calling me a slut or something and I just didn’t want to deal with it. So I left.”