I'm back, guys....maybe. I'm so sorry I've been gone for so long. We can only hope that my writing got better but in reality it probably got worse so.....here ya go.
James -
It was like any other Tuesday, we were at the office filming and editing. I was looking for some items to buy Aleks for our Amazon Prime Time videos, but I was in a bit of a dry spell. Which actually means that I had just been staring at Aleks from my desk for a good half hour.
It's not like he was doing anything that would cause me to stare, he was just sitting there and editing. His roots were starting to show again and he was growing back that god awful mustache but I thought he looked beautiful.
I've been dealing with these fucking feelings for months at this point. They just decided to show up one day and I guess I've come to terms with it. Maybe I've always felt this for him and just haven't realized? I have no idea and it kills me.
I always feel like such a jealous bitch when I see him with someone else or when he's just talking to our friends. I've even gone as far as looking up and listening to unrequited love playlists. Don't even get me started with the unrequited love tag on Tumblr. I've probably been through that whole tag like 5 times.
I'm interrupted from my staring by Brett clearing his throat. I'm internally screaming "Oh shit, I've been spotted!" I slowly look up to him standing right next to me.
"Can I help you?"
"Yeah, not like I've been trying to get your attention for five minutes now, asshole."
I reply with a good old fashioned "Oh, fuck off. What do you want?"
He sends me a sly smirk, "I was thinking that you and Aleks should run to the store and grab some food for the warehouse and shit like that."
I sighed before giving him a quiet "Okay" and standing up. I walked around to Aleks and draped my arms over his shoulders, my chest lightly pressed to his back. He tensed slightly and took off his headphones.
"Bro, what the fuck do you want?"
"We have to go to the store. Get your ass up and let's go or I'll leave without you." He sighed before standing up and chasing me out to my car.
We got in and he tried to Bluetooth his phone to my radio. "Yo, back the fuck off. This shit is not happening." He just laughed and continued to connect his phone.
Before long we arrived at Walmart and were walking inside. I told him to grab a cart which was a mistake because he was on my heels with that fucking cart and he almost got popped for it. He steered us over to the electronics section saying something about how he managed to break his iPhone charger.
He leaned down and grabbed a black one before looking at me and holding it out. "Dude, do you think this is long enough to tie a noose with?"
"What the actual fuck is wrong with you?"
"Yeah, I love you too." I felt my heart jerk when he said that.
Butterflies erupted in my stomach and I did my best to cover it up by telling him to "Shut the fuck up."
He giggled, fucking giggled, and the butterflies still wouldn't leave me. He tossed the charger into the cart and we started walking over to the grocery section. We grabbed everything from the list Brett sent me, including some extra shit that we liked or wanted to try.
Aleks grabbed my arm, causing me to stop walking. "Would you maybe wanna have a movie night tonight? We don't hang out like we used to and I kinda miss it..."
