Friends with Benifits

chapter 5

After school i laid in bed for the rest of the day till i heard someone ring the door bell i jumped out of bed and skipped down the stairs and opened the front door to see Sarah " Hey " i say as i let her in " can we talk? " i raised an brow " Sure lets go to my room for some privacy " i say i wondered what was wrong with Sarah she didnt seem to happy she was earlier today at school , i shut the door behind as Sarah plopped down on my bed " So whats up? " she sighed looking up at me " " Zoey im sorry about earier today at school i didnt mean to make you angry " i sighed i should be the one apologizing i was being a bitch and she didnt deserve that. I sat down next to Sarah on my bed " No Sarah , i should be apologizing i shouldnt have yelled at you like that. Its not your fault im in... never mind " i say shaking my head.

Sarah looked up at me " your in love with Connor arnt you? Oh my god if i knew that i wouldnt have brought up Casey and Connor! " " No its okay , i just feel like Connor is blowing me off for Casey like we've hardly talked since the party " i say as i get up to go to my bathroom to fix my hair. " oh well... would you like me to talk to him about it for you? " " No first im gonna try and talk to him and see what happens i mean if anything all hes asked me is who that guy was i was hanging out with at the party. " i say as i shut off my bathroom light and headed into my room " What did you tell him? " Sarah asked " I told him the guys name was Andrew than Connor told me i shouldnt be hanging out with him because apparently hes a bad kid. I left out the part about sleeping with im so ashamed of that.

I planned to talk to Connor find out if him and Casey were really together i dont know i may just be jealous. I dont want to be avoided by my best friend il be so pissed if he does avoid me just cause of that bitch. Shit!! I really am jealous. " Dont be ashamed blame the alcohol i do all the time " " Hows Zack treating you? " He better be treating her with a decent amount of respsect cause Sarah doesnt deserve to have her heart broken by some heartless fool. " Hes treating me good so far , Zoey just talk to Connor and see what he says. " " Yeah " i replied back.

The next morning i decided to go over to Connors place and figure this all out i quickly jumped out of bed and took a quick shower today i decided just to wear an cut off shirt and blue jean shorts than headed out. I turned up the radio only to hear that stupid Cody Simpson god he sucked at singing i couldnt bare to hear anymore of this shit i quickly turned the station ugh his voice really hurt my ears. As soon as i got to Connors house i killed the engine and hoped out before i could knock on the front door it opened up to a sexy Connor standing infront of me he looked like he just had woken up from a grave yard. " hey " i say cheerfully " Sup?" Connor says as he rubs his eyes i walked in and headed straight for his bedroom. When ever i came over thats where we spent most our together in his bedroom. " You know you could have told me the truth! " Connor growled as he shut his door.

I froze in my tracks im really hoping hes not referring to the whole Andrew thing i slowly turned around to look at him he had his arms crossed and was leaning against the wall. I decided to play stupid maybe its about something else " What are you talking about Connor?" I ask as i sat down on his bed he glared at me " Whats your problem?! " i snapped he sarcastically chuckled " You think i wouldnt find out you sleeping with Andrew!!!! Did i not tell you hes someone you shouldnt be hanging out with " connor snapped back at me. Okay i know me and Connor are bestfriends but we do have our ups & downs its not a big deal cause we both get over it within 15 minutes. I wondered how he found out the only person that knows i slept with Andrew was Sarah but she was my bestfriend to she wouldnt tell anybody.

" Who do you think you are my father?! Who are you to tell me what i should and shouldnt do?!! " i yelled " Actually it was some pretty damn good advice i know him a bit better than you do , i know what hes capable of doing. " i groaned this is so not what i came here for " Are you and Casey together? " i asked silently starring down at my hands " Are you and Andrew together?! " he fired back at me god damn this isnt getting anywhere. " i asked you first " i replied back he threw his hands up in the air in fusteration " Why does that matter to you?? " Connor asked . It matters because i love you.. but i couldnt tell him that more than likely it would ruine our friend ship because i bet looking through his eyes he just sees me as a friend an nothing more. It hurt to think that , that il never have a chance with him if he looked through my eyes and stepped in my shoes for a day he would see how amazing he truely is.

He could feel all the things i feel for him id could give my life for him i know its ridiculous to love him as much as i do but i cant help what my heart feels. " Nevermind " i say Connor sighed he came over an sat next to me on his bed " Zoey you know you can tell me anything , it will never leave my lips or will be spoken again " i looked up at him sadly " Not this time i cant tell you.... " he raised an eye brow with a confused look on his face me loving him was a secret i couldnt reveal to him. " Dont you trust me? " " Of course i trust you , but this is just something i cant tell you or anyone " he starred into my eyes looking for something that said other wise. I actually felt really bad i was hidding this from him cause normally i dont have a problem with telling him anything but he still hadnt told me if him and Casey were together.

" i have to go " i say as i slowly trudged towards his door " you have to or you want to? " my heart ached of pain knowing that i loved him but i couldnt have him " i dont know " i replied back i felt tears running down my cheeks it hurt that much " Is something wrong? " Connor asked with concern in his voice " No " Yes i can have you thats whats wrong i couldnt let him see that i was crying or hed'd definitely get the truth out of me so with that i walked out leaving his house. I went driving around wasnt sure where i was going but eventually id end up somewhere.

So sorry if this was a short chapter ! But i hoped you enjoyed it (: tell me what ya think comment & vote :D