The Party Girl // Zane Hijazi

Chapter 37: Remission

After five minutes I uncovered the test, and closed my eyes before looking at it. I slid down the wall and sat on the tile. "It will be okay," I whispered to myself before looking at the test.

I opened my eyes and looked down at the little plastic stick. The fortune teller to my future.

Positive.

My hands started to shake uncontrollably. "Oh god," I said, covering my mouth. I felt my eyes start to water up. I dropped the test on the ground.

"This can't be right," I said scrambling to get the other one out of the box. I sat back on the toilet and peed as much as I could. "Please be a mistake," I said.

I laid the test on the empty box, and pulled my pants up. "Jesus Christ," I said.

I washed my hands and looked for a hair tie in a panic. My neck started to sweat. I found one under a pile of Carly's makeup and tied my hair up. I breathed in and out slowly.

There was a knock on the door. "Hey, Bryn, I have to grab-" I heard Erin's voice and opened the door, and dragged her in, and shut the door.

"I'm going to go off the deep end," I said, with my hands on her shoulders. She looked terrified. "Wh-What did the test say? Do you need a Xanax?" she asked. I bent over and found the test. I held it up, and my hands shook. She looked at it then looked at me. "Oh my god,"

She covered her mouth and took the test from my hand. "Oh my god, Bryn," she looked up at me. "Are you taking the other one?" she asked. "I just took it,"

"I'm still waiting," I said.

"You need to call Zane. You can keep your stuff here and crash on the couch, but you have to go see him," she said. "Oh god," I said, sliding down the wall.

"What am I going to do?! I-I I can't even afford to go to school myself, how the fuck am I supposed to pay for a kid to go to college? How am I going to take care of this kid in a house full of people?!" I asked, starting to panic. Erin slid down the wall with me, and wrapped her arm around me. I laid my head on her shoulder. "God Erin, I'm such an idiot,"

"Here," she said, softly slapping my thigh. "I'll help you get your stuff from your car, then you can go talk to him," she said, getting up, then helping me up.

"Check the other test," she said.

I took a deep breath and took the toilet paper off the test, and held it in front of my face.

"Positive,"

I put one of the tests in my back pocket, and threw the other one in the garbage can by the toilet. Erin and I walked into the living room together. Kristen stood up, and Carly's attention was set on us. 

I looked at the both of them. "So?" Kristen asked. I glanced down, like a guilty child. 

Kristen knew what the look meant, and hugged me tight. "We love you, and support any decision you make," Erin said, rubbing my arm. I could feel the tears creep up but for some reason they never fell. I exhaled loudly. "I'm gonna go see Zane," I declared. "We'll help you get your stuff," Carly said getting up off the couch. 

We all got downstairs, and Kristen, Carly, and Erin could carry all my stuff themselves. "Just go see him and we'll take care of this," Kristen  said. I smiled. "Thank you guys," I said. They assured me it was no problem and they walked away with my stuff, and I was left alone in the garage. I got into the front seat, and got the pregnancy test out of my back pocket of my jeggings. I looked at the little pink plus sign. I threw it into my purse and grabbed my phone. 

I dialed Zane's number. I know it by heart. 

"Hey," he answered. 

"Meet me at K's," I said, abruptly. 

"When?" he asked, in an annoyed tone. 

"Now," 

"I don't-" 

"If you care about me you'll come," I said, my voice starting to shake. I closed my eyes, and took a deep breath. 

"Okay, I'll leave now," he said. 

"Okay," 

I hung up and laid my head on the steering wheel. 

"Jesus," I said, putting the visor down to look at myself. I looked haggard. There were dark bags under my eyes, and my eyelids were swollen from crying so damn much. I took my hair out of my bun and tried to make myself look somewhat decent. I turned the car on and reversed from my spot and started driving to K's. It took me about 20 minutes in traffic and I hoped to god he would be there before I got there. 

He wasn't. 

I went in and ordered our coffee's we normally got when we go here, and sat inside. 

Zane finally arrived about 20 minutes later, and he gave me a small smile. He had baggy sweatpants on, and looked like he just got out of bed.

I stood up. 

"Hi," he said, sweetly. 

I gave him a big hug, and started crying (of course) once he held me. He stroked my hair, and then pulled back, holding my cheeks in his hands, looking at me. I held his hand on my face. "I got you a coffee," I said, wiping my eyes, and breaking away from him. "Thank you," he said, sitting down. I sat down as well. 

"Let me start off by saying, I'm so sorry for how I acted," he said. "I was drunk and that was wrong of me and I really hope you can forgive me," he said. I stared at his hands. "Secondly, there's nothing going on with Corinna and I," I stared at him while he talked but all I could think about was that little pink plus sign. 

"It was a stupid bit that I shouldn't even have put in the video, or done in the first place,"

I ran my fingers through my hair, and took a sip of my iced coffee. 

"I just don't know why that idea ran through your head," I said. "It just made me feel like I wasn't- I don't know- Like- wasn't enough for you? I guess?" 

"You're enough, you're perfect. It was a dumb fucking mistake," he said, shaking his head. 

I grabbed his hand. 

"I just- I love you so much, and that just killed me, Zane," I said. Tears started to rise in my eyes. "I've never been cheated on, but it felt like a part of me was ripped away when I saw that," I crossed my legs under the table. 

"I can't even imagine how you felt, Bryn. And I promise I'll make it up to you," 

I rubbed my eyes, and sighed. "Zane- i- I have something to tell you," I said, grabbing my purse. "There's really no segway into this," I dug through it, and I felt my finger tips go numb trying to find the test. 

I grabbed it and held it in my palm. I couldn't feel any nerves in my body. "Zane, please just- Just listen okay?"

He gave me a weird look. "You're scaring me," he gave a small laugh. 

I slowly pulled the test out and looked at it in my lap. Tears dripped off my nose, and I sniffled. I finally took it out and slid it across the table to him. 

He looked at it, then looked at me. 

"I really didn't want this to happen like this- I- I haven't even met your family, and I just-" I started to just vomit words. His expression was so hard to read. 

He was quiet for a little bit. 

"Please, Zane, just say something,"