Collection of Poems

A Mistake

There's so many things I'd do for you
But why the fuck am I here
What the fuck am I getting out of this
I get hurt so often
So many little comments
So many unintentional words
That cut deeper than those knives of mine
I feel myself slit open everyday
Bleeding out onto the floor
And none of you see the fucking blood
The suffering
Why the fuck am I a piece of this
When all you do
Is take me apart
Piece by piece
Some days I think you have no idea
And others I feel it's on purpose
And it fucking hurts
Not knowing
If you didn't know then maybe it'd be more alright
But if I knew you were trying to hurt me
Then I'd know my heart has found it's home in a dark place
And I've made a mistake
But I don't know
I love you too much to let go
So I'll stay here
With your knife in my back
I'll stay here
Dying
And crying
And wishing I could fly away