Cold Flames

Chapter 12 : Limana Flames

This girl with blue hair was so familiar the first time I saw her with Firen in that club. But I stared two seconds too long and remembered her instantly at the café. This girl was someone I could never erase from my memory. She was the first girl I slept with. What can I say? I was always a bit of a daredevil. What better way to lose your virginity, than to lose it to the very thing those ice people of mine unconsciously fetishized. I wanted to prove how much better I was, how much more I could handle than the rest of that God forsaken family. So I asked for a favor. Then the little blue fire was presented to me almost as if my prayers were answered by the Gods themselves. I mean come on, blue? My favorite color, too? I couldn't resist.

Limana Flames.

I could never forget her blue hair. This was when colorful hair wasn't so much of a style, so of course it intrigued me. I mean, I didn't know of too many fire people with blue hair. Back then, I was still involved with the family of course, and she could see the torture I went through with those people. I gritted my teeth just thinking about them. Her pity resulted into friendship, and then... We got a little too friendly. Of course that annoying bitch Fray would never stand for me to be happy. I was sure she was just an extension of my family's wishes to make me miserable. I shook my head at the decisions that were made back then. What was I trying to prove to myself? That I'm not like them?

And now... Now many years later I'm with her best friend. God, I'm awful. I can see why she hates me so much. She probably will try to convince me to leave her alone. But it's different with Firen then it was with her... Oh young love seemed so important back then. But I could never say I was ever in love with Limana. Hell I don't even know how I'm feeling all the way about Firen just yet. I hope I can make her realize that. I'd at least like the opportunity to prove I'm not what I was back then, nor what I was two weeks ago. I mean people grow and progress everyday in life. Whose to say I hadn't had some substantial life event that was going to dramatically alter how the rest of my life was going to be lived?

"Look," she began, cutting off my rambling question process, "I'm not tryna be the bad guy here. And I know that you...are you. I realize that whether I like it or not, we had a past together. You may not remember amongst the masses you've since then dealt with, but that is fine with me. I've only come to you for one reason. And that's the fire woman you are involved with now." She said calmly. She stopped. I guessed waiting for a response to her statement. I was always impatient with people and the whole point process they were trying to make with me. Stop dragging on and just get to the threat already.

"I do remember you. And yes I understand your current concerns." I said tranquilly. She stared at me for a moment, probably because of the fact that I remembered her... or my calm approach to the conversation at hand. In the good old days, I'd probably provoke the party at hand just to get a rise out of the situation. Nothing pleased me more to engage in senseless violence. It was a hell of a drug to succumb to when you were angry with life as much as I was. Plus, it was always in benefit of my family, so no one was going to question my actions. God, have I become so cold that she would think I would forget her though? I mean sure, I had a dramatic change of lifestyle, but I didn't think I had gotten that... Heartless. Especially to her. That was never my intention. If anything, the greater portion of my life had been lived on auto pilot. Living but not really living, like an empty shell being pushed forward by an unknown source... faith maybe? That it would all just work itself out. She then lowered her head, "Then... that saves an explanation," she began again.

"I'm not here to warn you off. All I want to say is that...please." I could hear Limanas voice break at the plea. "Please, don't play this little cat and mouse game you play with Firen. Not everyone can handle your game of filling whatever void your family placed deeply inside you. Especially not Firen. I get it, it was horrible what they put you through, but you're living a different life now. Away from them. Away from THAT you. Just... just don't do this. She doesn't know why I know you... and honestly, I'd like to keep our knowing each other buried if you can. There's things you don't know about her... dangerous things..." She rambled quietly on while looking at the ground, unable to make eye contact, with a far away look as if memories were returning she had rather preferred repressed. "I won't tell her what I was put through because of you. I won't even hint it. If you two do happen to separate, let it be for a reason that's mutual. I care too much for her to see her hurt again. I'm not just talking about her putting herself out there just for possible disappointment either." The girl seem to be explaining yet hinting towards another explanation, making it hard to follow what she was talking about. Should Firen be scared of me, or should I be sacred of her? My brow scrunched in confusion at this girl's babbling, trying to dissect a hidden meaning between the lines.