After Years ~ Stray Kids Lee Felix ✔

Chapter 9

Nari's POV

It's been almost a week since I last had a conversation with Felix. Since then, he became so cold to me. Everytime we made eye contact, he broke it in a few seconds. Everytime I asked him something, he only answered shortly or not answering at all. He looks like he's trying to avoid me. It's hurting me.

"Nari."

I saw Jisung's face right in front of me, looking at me with a confused face.

"Are you daydreaming again?" he asked as he pulled his face away from mine.

I shook my head and sighed, "I'm just thinking about Felix."

There's a slight change on his face, but soon he smiled. "Oh yeah, how is it going between you two?"

"It's not good."

"Do you like him?"

"What?"

"Felix."

I furrowed my eyebrows, "Of course not."

"Be honest, Nari. You look like you care about him so much. No, you look like you love him," he said and pulled a chair next to me to sit.

"Jisung-ah, I'm being honest."

"Or maybe you just haven't realized your feelings," he muttered, but I could hear him.

Before I could say anything, I saw Felix coming in to our classroom. He was about to sit when he saw Jisung sitting on his seat. So he coldly walked away and sat on a random seat far away from me.

"Felix, why are you sitting there?" I asked.

"You have a new seatmate already," he said and plugged in his earphones.

I sighed, "Jisung is just borrowing your seat. Come back here."

He didn't move and ignored me. I didn't realize until I saw Jisung, he was staring at me.

He realized that I saw him so he smiled, "Don't worry, I'll tell him to sit here."

He then stood up and approached Felix. He had a little conversation with him, but I couldn't really hear them because they were talking in low voice. After a minute, Felix let out a little sigh and stood up. I watched him as he took a seat beside me. Jisung smiled a little at me before taking his own seat.

"Felix," I called him, but he ignored me again. Despite that, I still talked. "I need to talk to you. Meet me after school in the garden."

He stared at me for a few seconds before looking away.

"I take that as a yes," I said again before opening my book.

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I was waiting for Felix. It's been 30 minutes, and he didn't pick up his phone. I sighed. Maybe he really didn't want to meet me. I was about to go home when he appeared in front of me, still with his cold face, both of his hands inside his pants pockets.

"What do you want to talk about?" he asked with his icy tone.

"I thought you won't come," I muttered.

"Get to the point. I'm busy," he said.

"Why are you acting cold towards me?" I asked instantly, like what he told me to do.

"Because I want to," he simply said. "You asked me to come here just to ask me that?"

"I'm serious, Felix. Answer me with a proper answer," I said, my face turned serious.

He scoffed, "I thought you'll be happy if I leave you alone? What do you want actually?"

"I want you to be back, smiling warmly to me, but of course, without your special feelings towards me," I said the truth, I know I'm so selfish but I seriously couldn't stand the days with him being cold to me.

"I don't have feelings for you anymore," he said and I widened my eyes.

"What?"

"I take this one week as an opportunity to forget you," he said. "Actually, I don't know what happened to me back then, but forgetting you isn't as hard as I thought. That's why, don't talk to me anymore, don't come near me, because we have no relationship at all now."

"But I thought we're friends?" my hands were already shaking.

"Friends? I never consider you as my friend. Now that I don't have feelings for you, I don't--"

"WHY ARE YOU BEING LIKE THIS, FELIX?!" I yelled, cutting him off. I could see his shock expression because of my sudden shout.

To be honest, very honest, I'm hurt. I'm really hurt. His words are like daggers that stabbed right into my heart, tearing it into pieces. I know, I should be happy because that's what I want, Felix staying away from me.

But why now, it hurts so much knowing that he doesn't want to talk to me anymore? It's worse when I'm hurt when he said he doesn't have feelings for me anymore. He's right, what the hell do I want?

Felix's POV

I could see tears welling up in her eyes. My heart hurt seeing her like this. Of course, everything that I told her is a lie. I will never forget my feelings for her, she's too precious for me, and I love her way too much already.

But I need to do this to her. Now I've made up my mind, I don't want to be selfish anymore. Seeing her happy, makes me happy. I know she must have a reason on why she's trying to avoid me, keep telling me to stay away from her. It must be for our own good. 

"I'm doing what you want me to do," I said, looking at her with my cold eyes.

I need to act cold towards her, so it will be easier for her to hate me and forget about me. It's hurting me of course, but like what I said, I need to do this.

"I'm going if you're done," I said and turned, starting to walk away.

I could hear her sobs, and I didn't realize that I was crying until a tear rolled down my cheek. I immediately wiped it, I need to be strong. As I walked further away, the sound of her sobs started to fade away until I couldn't hear her at all. It hurts more, knowing that the cause of her tears is me.

I walked home with a numerous of sighs. I kept looking down, until I felt a bump on my head. I looked up and saw a girl staring at me, with a big smile on her face.

But once she saw my sad expression, her smile faded. "Oppa, are you hurt?"

I frowned. Who's this girl?

She stepped closer and held my right arm as I looked at her with a confusion written all over my face.

"You're crying?" she asked.

"Who are you?" I asked, not answering her question. It's creepy you know.

"Ahh right, you don't know me yet," she smiled. "My name is Alicia. Nice to meet you, Felix oppa."

Author's Note:
New update! Hope you all like it! Thanks for waiting my slow update, I love you all. ❤❤❤