Scared

Chapter nineteen

I sat patiently in my seat, Mrs. Moriyama collecting the reports slowly.

I didn't even get to see Harry at all because I was busy, again. He hasn't even returned my text or calls and I was growing worried.

I fiddled with my pencil, picking off the earaser.

"Ariana, your paper please." Mrs. Moriyama holds out her hand.

"Oh, uh, here." I quickly give her my report.

Inside I wrote about my experience and what I learned and how grateful I am for my little, broken family because the kids at the foster house aren't as lucky like other people in this world.

Just as the teacher makes it back to her desk, the bell rings

"You're all dismissed." She sets the reports down as students get up and run out the door.

I take my time in gathering my belongings.

"Hey." Louis comes over to my desk.

"Hi." I zip up my backpack, throwing over my shoulder.

"Wanna hang out today? Unless you're gonna be with Harry, that's fine."

"Actually, I'd love to hang out with you." I start my way out of the classroom, saying good-bye to the teacher who was already grading the papers.

"Wait, really?" Louis smiles, following out of school.

"Why is it so surprising?" I grasp onto both my backpack straps.

"I dunno, maybe it's because you hang out with Harry too much. I'm not trying to sound selfish here, but we have so little time to do what we do before collage." He presses his lips in a straight line.

"I guess." I start,"You're right."

"I always am." He proudly smirks.

"Yeah, keep telling yourself that." I pat his chest,"We can go back to my place and watch movies, yeah?"

"Sounds like a plan." He begins to walk to my house with me.

As soon as I step inside my house, I could hear loud instruments and singing come from the garage.

"I dedicate this song to you, the one who never sees the truth, that I can take away your hurt, heartbreak girl." Luke's melodious voice ruffly booms through the house.

"I forgot Luke was gonna have band practice here." I mutter, turning to face Louis.

"It's okay. Their music is good, anyways." He shrugs tossing his backpack on the couch, sitting right after.

"You sure?" I ask, plopping down next to him.

"Yeah, we can listen to them until they're done."

"Alright." I pull out my phone.

"But I wanna scream out, you could be with me now, but I end up telling you what you wanna hear." Calum's voice rings through the whole house.

"What song is this?" Louis asks, not taking his attention away from his phone.

"I think it's called Heartbreak Girl." I answer,"It's a new song that Luke and Cal wrote."

He nods his head, really enjoying the song.

"Fuck!" I hear Luke swear through the microphone.

After a few mumbles, the boys came in through the garage door, all sweating like crazy.

"Oh, hey, Ariana. Louis." Luke greets, wiping his sweaty forehead with the back of his hand.

"Are you guys done practicing?" I tear my attention away from my phone.

"I guess." He shrugs, walking into the kitchen.

"He's mad because he fucked something up." Michael speaks in a low voice.

"I heard that." Luke calls from the other room.

"Well, keep it down because Lou and I are gonna be watching movies." I help Louis off the couch, leading him upstairs.

Halfway through the 4th movie, I was starting to fall asleep.

It was about 11:00 pm and my eyes were getting heavy.

"Hey, I'm gonna go home. Get some rest." Louis slowly gets up, taking the movie out of the DVR.

"No, you're tired, don't go home while you're the tired one." I barely mumble. My head isn't even working, I don't even know what I'm saying.

"I think you're the tired one." He chuckles, standing at the doorway,"I'll see you later, okay?" He smiles, shutting my door.

I begin to shut my eyes again, until my phone lit up.

I lifted up my head to read over the text message, in fact, a few of them were sitting there.

"I lazily dragged my hand across my phone screen and brought it to my face.

Harry: ariana please answer me

Harry: I'm sorry if i haven't answered you lately, but this is important

Harry: please i need to tell you something

Harry: i know you're reading my messages, just please reply soon

Harry: i don't want things to end knowing you hate me too

Harry: i just really need to talk to you and i'll stop bothering you

I sigh, swiping my finger across the bottom screen, unlocking my phone.

I typed back a quick response so he can just stop spamming me.

It took him a pretty long time to reply, but I tried my best to stay awake to hear what he has to say.

Harry: Ariana, please don't ever get mad at yourself for this and don't go blaming yourself. This is what I want and it just needs to be done. Not our relationship, I love you so much, but what I'm trying to say is

I barely read the rest, letting my phone slip out of my tired hand, my eyes closing and falling asleep.

FOUR YEARS OF ONE DIRECTION OH MY GOD<3

I just wanted to know their names, I didn't think I'd dedicate my life to these boys.

But I love them lots and I'll continue to love them. Wow four years and they've completed so much. I'm just so proud of them amd I'm so thankful for everything they have done.

Long live One Direction

And I decided to put in heartbreak girl because that song just brings in so many memories.

It was 5sos's first song that I ever listened to and that's kinda where I fell in love :-)

Yaaaay! So enough of my fandom memories haha