Scared

Chapter twenty-one

Warning: You might cry

I highly suggest you read this at night, if it's daytime wherever you are, wait and read at night time!

A bottle of pills.

"Harry, you did not." I whisper, as he drops to his knees.

"I'm sorry." He starts to cry, as I drop to my knees as well.

I take the pills out of his hand, seeing he swallowed way more than he needed to.

"Why?" I sob, throwing the bottle somewhere else as he crying mess.

"I'm just sick and tired of living in a world where everyone hates me." He sniffs,"It's better if I'm gone." He whispers, slowly shutting his eyes.

"How the hell could you ever say that?" I hold tighter to his cold hands.

"It's true, and you know it." His words begin to slur.

"Harry, stay with me, please." I cry even harder,"I love you."

"I love you more than anything in this world. But not as much as Luke does." He smiles, his tears coming to a stop.

"What do you mean?"

"How bloody blind can you get?" He lets out a rough cough,"Don't you see it? The way he looks at you and how he's around you. Everyone sees it, but you."

"I don't unde-"

"I want you to be with him. At least I know you'll be safe with Luke." Harry lightly kisses my nose.

"But I love you." I wipe away his tears.

"I know you love Luke." He sadly smiles, reaching into his pocket,"Here."

He hands me a folded piece of paper.

"What is this?"

"Everything you need to know and everything I never said, but I always wanted to. It also has my airplane neckalace in it, so I'll always be with you." He holds me closer than ever, his grip getting weaker and weaker.

"Goodbye, Ariana. I love you so much." He placed once last kiss on my lips.

This kiss had so many emotions, everything else in the world just disappeared.

"You're finally an angel now." I whisper.

He gave me one last warm smile, his gorgeous dimples showing as his body fell into my arms, his head resting on my shoulder as I hold him even closer than I did before.

His chest was pressed against my chest where I couldn't feel a heartbeat anymore.

The tears came rushing back. I didn't move for the longest time, I only wished I had more time with Harry.

"Ariana." A voice on the other side of the roof called.

"Luke?" I wiped my tears away, still holding Harry's lifeless body in my arms.

He walked over to me, sitting down next to Harry and I, not saying a word.

"He was pretty special to you, huh?"

"He was my everything." I sniffle, placing my head on Harry's shoulders.

"I saw everything." Luke admitted, not even looking at me.

"Everything?" I turn my head to look at his profile.

"Yeah."

"D-do you love me?" I dared to ask.

"I really love you." He turns to look me with his beautiful blue eyes.

I leaned in my head, connecting my lips with his soft lips. Luke's kiss wasn't like Harry's, I don't think anyone can compare to Harry, but he was right. I do love Luke. I just never came to admit it because I was so scared it would ruin everything.

Luke disconnects our lips, smiling like he's never smiled before.

"I'll leave you alone for a little." He kisses my forehead, walking down the stairs.

I turn to look at Harry,"Harry."

Oh, wait.

I take my eyes off of him and look at the sky instead.

"Harry, thank you for everything. I love you."

~One Week Later~

"Ariana, it's unhealthy to stay in your room all day." Luke knocks on my door.

"Leave me alone, alright?" I turn up my stero volume a little higher.

"You've been blasting Stay all week!" He yells.

He eventually left, getting the message I wanted to be alone.

After everything was settled with the foster house and the police, I locked myself in my room all week, refusing to go outside. The only times I went out was to use the restroom or eat something.

I refused to attend school, but at a stage like this, I didn't give a fuck.

I've been listening to Stay, by Mayday Parade nonstop because it was the song Harry and I shared.

Tissues were scattered all over my bed and floor, and I only wore Harry's clothes.

After his death, the foster home gave me some of his belongings.

Every morning, I like to read his letter over and over, never taking off his neckalace.

But at some point, I know he wants me to move on and find love again.

It's not easy, but knowing I have Luke, it's all I need right now and forever.

And at night, I open my window and climb onto the nearby tree, admiring the sky. Then I begin to talk to Harry about my day and how I'm doing. I can almost hear his voice, telling me he loves me, but it's time to let go.

I just really miss him.

I'm sorry if I've made you sad. Don't kill me! I don't like it when people cry D: I bet you all think I'm satan now

But I have one more chapter left for you to read, ((maybe and epilouge)) and the surprise is... Harry's letter to Ariana !

I love you all, never forget that. If you're going through a rough time, you can always talk to me. You're all worth it. You can dm me on twitter (@plzclifford) and I'll listen to you, I've got time for all of you. :)