CHANCES ↠ NICK MARA

SIX

GOAL: 18 VOTES AND 15 COMMENTS?¿?

[ lexee ]

"So, you guys went from him hitting on you to being best friends?" Aimee asks, giving Miles and I a curious look.

"You say that like it's weird," I reply, resting my head on Miles' shoulder.

"I think you've been out of the game too long to recognize these signs." Aimee scrunches up her eyebrows and points -- almost accusatory -- between the two of us. "Are you sure he's not like secretly still pining over you because we both know how sad and cruel that'd be."

"After she broke down in front of me, I quickly got over her," he says seriously, but I know that he's joking, just messing around with me. I playfully smack him on his shoulder. He sobers up and replies more seriously. "After she told me about Nick, I found myself being protective over her, but more in a brother type of way. It's weird."

"Uh huh," Aimee nods. "So, you're single then."

Miles laughs. "Yes, I am currently single."

Aimee smirks, and I recognize the challenging spark in her eyes. I immediately groan, earning a glance from Miles. I just shake my head.

Miles looks at Aimee. "So, do you know what happened between Nick and Lexee?"

Aimee's eyes widened for a millisecond. "You're blunt. I like it," she says, grinning. "I don't really know much. Lex," she points at me, "is holding out on me. Well, the joke's on her because I know I can break her down eventually."

"Why are you guys talking about me like I'm not here?" Aimee just gives me a knowing look, which makes me sigh. "Nick and I parted ways. We wanted different things, I guess." It was Miles who gave me a look now. "What do you guys want me to say?" I ask, exasperated.

Miles seems to ponder for a moment. "How about you tell us about when it all went wrong?" He asks, curious. It was refreshing that Miles is acting in a manner that says he cares for me, not like he feels sorry for me.

"How is reliving this going to help? Aren't you afraid that I'm going to have another meltdown?"

Miles rolls his eyes but locks his eyes with mine afterward. His eyes look soft. "Maybe talking about when it went wrong can help you understand why it went wrong." I still don't understand. "It can give you closure and allow you to move on."

"What if I can't remember when it all went wrong?" I ask, sad.

Aimee places her hand on my shoulder. "Then, we can keep talking about it when you want, when you're ready, and help you figure it out. It's not healthy to keep your feelings locked inside. If you want to leave this all behind you, then you need to be able to look back on your relationship with no hardships."

A part of me tells me that I don't want to leave it behind. It's like it's whispering that in my ear. However, another part of me wants to do just that because... what's the point? What's the point of holding onto it?

"Do you remember Mark?" Aimee asks me

"Your boyfriend in ninth grade?" I reply, wondering where she is going with this.