CHANCES ↠ NICK MARA

EIGHT

the video attached isn't her actual performance  but it's the song. ALSO IMPORTANT, i changed the dates because i realized my timeline was messed up my bad. so they started becoming close friends in 2013, started dating in 2014, broke up in 2017.

beanzmuch: only the true fans remember lexee
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may_leli: who?
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beanzmuch: lol it's nick's ex gf

omwkuwonu: did nick really cheat on lexee yikes

fvckarreaga: if you guys don't think that nick let the best thing that ever happened to him go, you guys are delusional
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glowkuwonu: honestly, lexee was so supportive of him. when i met her, she was always so sweet. i thought they'd be together forever.

preciousmara: y'all this is so sad. nick and lexee were my otp.
attached video of lexee's performance

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[ lexee ]

"A few years ago, I met this guy," I start, rocking myself back and forth on the stool, "and he was everything that I hoped he would be, you know? Like the one? It wasn't like I was looking for someone—I think that's the beauty of it." I smile, looking out at the crowd, who were all staring back at me, listening intently to me. It's crazy that all these people care about me and my life. "Sometimes the best things come when you least expect it, you know? And all that fairytale stuff," I shake my head, biting my lip. "But that's what it was. I'm not going to say that love is crap, and it only happens in fairytales because I've experienced it in real life. I will never regret that."

"I had just gotten out of a horrible relationship— Well, really, it was more like a couple of horrible relationships. We were friends first, but then I fell in love with him pretty quickly. How could I not?" I ask the audience like I expected them to know, but I know that no one could really understand my love for Nick, even after everything. "It took us a while to actually get together because we were both being dumb." I touch my right ring finger where my promise ring used to be.

"He checked all of my boxes. He was always there for me. He used to help me improve my skills. I wouldn't be where I am without him. I guess it wasn't enough." I start to tear up a bit, and I could hear one person cheering me on. I laugh and wipe away the tear. "One day, it just didn't work anymore. I guess it was a long time coming, but one day, we just stopped trying. One day, love just wasn't enough anymore." I adjust my guitar, so I'd feel more comfortable as I stand there on the stage. "So, I decided to take advantage of my tragic love story and write a song about it. Even though I was hurting and still am hurting, I know things will be alright. I will never blame him for what happened. I was just grateful for the times we've had."

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may 26, 2014

"Did you really just kick me?" Nick asks, all shocked. His face with lights up in amusement.

"You told me to!" I defend myself. I clear my throat and made my voice lower, "Kick me if I'm wrong."

"I was clearly joking!" He laughs.

"How was I supposed to know?" I hide my blushing face from him and continue to play the piano. "Do you think this note works?"