LEXEE GOMEZ was there for it all, from his struggles to his fame. NICK MARA was there for it all, being her rock and shoulder to cry on and cuddle buddy. Then, one day, they weren't there for each other at all.
I am in the studio, trying to get some music done but I cannot concentrate. "You can't come home for Christmas?" I question him, but I already knew the answer to that. I know he can't see me, but I'm pouting.
He sighs, and at that moment, I know I can't be angry at him. He's just as tired. He's just as upset as I am. "I'm so sorry, babe. You know that if I could, I would come home to you in a heartbeat." FaceTime pops up on my phone, and I accept it immediately, sighing in relief when I see his face. "Our manager said it's easier to stay here because we have dates right after the holiday."
I lean against the palm of my head, not saying a word. I just stare at him because I miss him so much.
"I have to go, babe," he says, looking off to the side.
"But we just talked for like a minute."
"I know," he pouts, "but there's a meet up happening right now, and we have to go."
"We haven't talked in forever." I'm upset or I should be upset because our plans to catch up haven't been going well at all. He's always busy. I'm always busy. We always miss each other. I thought today was our day, but I couldn't be upset with him because he just cares for his fans. How could I be mad at him for that?
He just kisses the phone and murmurs, "Remember I love you. We can get through this," he says right before he ends the call.
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Over the next week, I also get busy recording for my next album. I see his calls but have to ignore him because I'm in the studio. I see his messages, but can't respond because I have to write my next song.
This is the first time we had the chance to talk in what seemed like an eternity. If it was even possible, he looked even more tired. I don't know how that's supposed to make me feel, but right now, it just makes me feel tired all over again.
