Still You (ZhengKun)

[9] Confusion

Zhengting woke up already but his eyes are still closed. He moves as he felt someone was lying beside him on his bed. He turned around and hugged him, still, with his eyes closed.

“Xu-” he stopped. The scent of the man he’s hugging now is familiar, but it’s not Xukun.

“Xu what?” he giggles. “Good morning, baby.” Wenjun greets him as he kisses Zhengting’s forehead. Zhengting opened his eyes, he’s shocked.

“W-Wenjun?” he sits. “Since when did you come back?” Zhengting’s face is obviously shocked.

“Why are you so shocked? Did you not miss me?” Wenjun pouts. Zhengting didn’t know what to feel and how to act infront of Wenjun. He doesn’t know how to face him after what happened to him and Xukun last night. They did not just went out, they kissed. Passionately.

“O-of course, I do. It’s just that… why did you not tell me earlier so that I’m ready?” he said to Wenjun.

“Are you angry? I’m sorry. I just wanted to surprise you, but I guess I failed.” Wenjun said in a low tone.

“Nevermind, it’s fine.” he responded in with a cold voice. He doesn’t know why he’s being mad, he’s cold and he knows it’s not right. He should be happy, he should be welcoming Wenjun with hugs and kisses.

“Uhm, maybe I’ll leave first? If you want to rest, you can continue to sleep again. I-I won’t bother you. I’m sorry,” Wenjun stand up. “By the way, I.. I cooked for you already. Just eat them later or if you don’t want, just put in in the fridge.” he smiled weakly as he turn around to walk towards the door. Zhengting feels so guilty. He shouldn’t be doing this to Wenjun. He realized it so he runs after him and hugged him from behind.

“I’m sorry, I was just a little bit tired. I missed you. Stay here and let’s eat together, okay?” he said while back hugging Wenjun. Wenjun smiles. How can he resist his boyfriend? He turned around to face Zhengting and cupped his face with his soft hands.

“I understand you and I want you to rest if you’re tired, but if you want me to stay here then I will. I’ll take care of you to make up those times that I wasn’t by your side. Sorry for leaving you alone here.” Wenjun are sweet but it cuts Zhengting’s heart like knives.

Poor Wenjun, he doesn’t know Zhengting wasn’t alone while he’s gone, that someone is taking care of his man, that someone is cooking for him, that someone kissed him. Zhengting’s conscience is taking all over him..

“What did I do to deserve this man right in front of me? Or do I deserve him?” He said to himself. Wenjun was shocked when Zhengting cried.

“Baby, hey.. W-why are you crying? Are you okay? Did I say something wrong?” Wenjun asks him and he’s really worried. Zhengting shakes his head, telling him no.

“N-nothing, I.. just… I’m sorry.” He hugs Wenjun, real tight. Wenjun is confused. “Why are you saying sorry?”

“I j-just missed you..” he says to him, still crying. Wenjun wiped his tears off and looks directly into Zhengting’s eyes.

“You’re lying,” Zhengting was shocked but he didn’t let Wenjun to notice it. His heart js beating fast. Does he know? “I know you’re lying, I know there’s something wrong.. but it’s okay if you don’t tell me now. I respect you.”

His heart exploded. Wenjun knows him very well, especially when he’s lying. “I really don’t deserve him.” he, again, said to himself.

“It’s fine now, baby. Stop crying. I won’t leave, let’s eat. Okay?” Wenjun told him to make him feel better. They went to the dining area and eat the food that Wenjun prepared. But then again, he remembered Xukun.. Shit, this is not right. He tried his best to remove Xukun in his mind and focus on Wenjun.

His phone rings while they’re still eating.

“Calling…. XUKUN”

His heart race again. No, not this time. He rejected the call.

“Why did you not answer it? It might be important.” Wenjun says. “No, it’s okay. It’s just my friend.” Zhengting lied. Wenjun just said okay and they continue to eat when his phone vibrates. He read the message, and it’s from Xukun.

From: Xukun

Are you going to answer my call or I’ll enter your house.. right now?

Fuck, what?