Still You (ZhengKun)

[12] Same Mistake

Zhengting is walking on the way to his house. He can’t stop think about the mess he made, about saying Xukun’s name.. moaning his name in front of Wenjun.

When he’s already near his house, he saw Xukun waiting outside. His heart beats fast. Shit, what should I do? He thought to himself. He slowly move towards the door as Xukun saw him and smiled.

“What are you doing here?” Zhengting asked. “Is it bad to visit you, my dear?” Xukun responds as he smiled playfully.

“You know, just go home. I don’t have time for you,” Zhengting tries to enter his house but Xukun blocked the way. “What the heck?” Zhengting is pissed off.

“Just uhh.. let me enter your house too.” Xukun says. “Please?” Zhengting ignored him and he pushed Xukun away and entered his house. He closed the door. He go straight to his room and jumped onto his bed.

“AAAAAAHHHH!! You’re so dumb, Zhengting! You’re stupid! How can you fucking moan Xukun’s name while making out wirh Wenjun? Shit!” He screams while his face is burried in his pillow.

“So, you moaned my name?” Zhengting hurriedly stand up as he heard Xukun’s voice. He is standing at the door of his room with his arms crossed and smiling widely.

“S-shit. No! Of course not.” Zhengting couldn’t look at him. He lied even though he knows very well that Xukun heard what he said. Xukun smirks.

“Don’t deny it, I heard it very well. You moaned my name while with Wenjun? Why can’t you just admit that you’re still into me? Why can't you just leave him and come back to me?”

“No, it’s just… a mistake, okay? Now, leave me alone. Go home.” Zhengting is pushing Xukun away as Xukun held his hand and looked straight into his eyes. Those eyes. Those eyes were telling him not to let him go, telling him he should just choose him, telling him just let him be there.

“Zhengting, listen. If you just come back to me,” Xukun cupped his face. “you can freely moan my name. You can shout it out loud without worrying,” Zhengting can see the fire inside Xukun’s eyes. He is so fucked up. He can’t think properly. “Just.. go back to me.”

Zhengting sat at the corner of his bed. He can’t even think properly. Wenjun is hurt because of him and now Xukun is here again, trying to get him back. Xukun sat beside him and kissed his left arm. He immediately felt the butterflies in his stomach, his blood rushed through his face. That’s.. his weak spot. He knows. He knows very well that he SHOULDN’T, but he COULDN’T help but to feel soft.. “I can make you feel happy.” Xukun whispers to Zhengting’s ear as he bites it again. Zhengting bites his lower lip and close his eyes because of pleasure.

Xukun slightly pushed him to his bed. He’s now at the top of Zhengting and they can feel the warm breath of each other. Xukun is slowly closing the remaining distance between them as their hot bodies touch. Zhengting closed his eyes as Xukun claimed his lips, he is kissing him as if there’s no tomorrow. Zhengting tasted Xukun’s soft lips with the taste of a very familiar peppermint chapstick and as usual, it tastes like home. This is his home and he loves going home. He wrapped his arms around Xukun’s neck and his legs around his waist. He arched his back as Xukun planted soft little kisses to his ears down to his neck. They’re both getting hotter and it seems like nothing can stop them.

Xukun undressed Zhengting when they heard a noise outside the bedroom, it’s like a thud. “What’s that?” Zhengting asks but Xukun just grabbed his lips as a response and smirked between their kiss. Zhengting is bothered but he just choose to ignore it. So this is it, he admits to himself that it’s still him. After all these years, it was Xukun, and it’s still Xukun. He loved Wenjun, really. But it’s still Xukun.

He stopped and stared at Xukun’s eyes. “I.. I know this is bullshit b-but I still love y-” he didn’t finish what he is saying because Xukun cuts him with a kiss, but obviously, he was going to say he still.. loves him.

That night, it happened. They had sex, or maybe they made love?

***

The next morning, he woke up without Xukun beside him. He smiles as he thinks that maybe he is taking a shower or maybe cooking for him. He get off his bed and look for Xukun but he’s nowhere to be found. Where is he? He thought to himself. He tried to call him but it was unattended. Where did he go?