Still You (ZhengKun)

[14] Two Lovers

After letting Zhengting go, Wenjun decided to just go back to Thailand but before he leaves, he came to Xukun’s office and talk to him.

“What are you doing here?” Xukun asks.

“I’m here to say take care of Zhengting. I’m giving him back to you.” Wenjun answers him. Xukun smirked.

“Seriously, Wenjun? Seriously?” Xukun takes two steps closer to Wenjun. “Do you think he’s a fucking toy which you can steal and bring back to the owner anytime you want?” His voice is obviously mad but he’s still trying to compose himself.

“I.. I don’t want to push him to me anymore. It’s clear that he still wants you.” Wenjun said to him. Xukun again gave him a smirk.

“Why? How did you know? Did you just hear him moan my name while making out and about to have sex with you?” Xukun took one step closer with his hands in his pocket. “Or you just saw us having sex in his house right after your fight?” He giggles. “You were there, right? That night. You saw us.”

Xukun’s words are knives to Wenjun. Yes, he was there. He saw it. When he’s about to make it up with Zhengting, what he saw was Xukun and him, in one bed, kissing, hugging and.. making love.

“Yes, I saw it. That’s the time that I wanted to fix everything about us but then that’s what I saw..” Wenjun looked down. “and that’s when I realized that there’s no more thing to fix, there’s no more chance. He’s still into you.”

“It never stops hurting, right?” Xukun asks as Wenjun turns his head to him, confused. “What?” he asks.

“Seeing someone you love choosing someone else.  Watching them choosing someone else when all you fucking did was to give them the best you could?” Xukun is staring at him while saying those words that hits him very hard. “It literally fucks up, right? You think about every single little thing of what you did and which part of you wasn’t enough.” He said to Wenjun.

“I know my mistake. I know I fucked up. I admit it and I’m sorr-” Xukun cuts him out. “Stop saying bullshit, Wenjun. And you? You’re sorry? Damn it. 2 years! I just lost the chance to cherishing those years with him! While I was misserable, you were here having the best 2 years of your freaking life with Zhengting. You don’t know what I’ve been through. You didn’t know how much it hurts deep inside seeing the only one you love choose someone else,” Xukun says. “but now, you know. You know how I felt. You know how much it can fuck you up.”

Wenjun couldn’t say anything. But he thought to himself that Xukun is right. He was the first one to break them and this is now his karma.

“And don’t you dare say that back then you didn”t know that would happen because you know very well what what you were doing and you knew very damn well who were you breaking.” Xukun added.

“Xukun, even if I did a mistake, I want you to know that I.. I truly loved him. I really did and I still do. I take care of him in any possible way I could. I gave him everything.” Wenjun said.

“Yeah, you did what I should’ve done. You did what was supposed to be my job as his man,” Xukun sighs. “I loved him, too. And I still do now. But you.. you just fucked everything up.”

“This is why I’m here, to bring you back what I have stolen. The happiness, the love. I know very well the shits I’ve done and I’m sorry for all of it. I’m not doing this for you, but for Zhengting. I want his happiness and I know I couldn’t give it to him anymore. So, please. Take care of him…” Wenjun says as his voice cracks. “I’m leaving.” He turns himself towards the door as Xukun said “Damn you, Wenjun.”