cotton candy stitches

July 15, 2018

I happily walk along the boardwalk, holding onto the necklace Tristan had gotten for me. He's honestly the sweetest boyfriend ever. He had to go clean up the house a bit before meeting me here afterwards.

I walk into the nearest coffee shop, embracing the smell of coffee beans as soon as I enter. It makes my heart swell with happiness.

I quickly order my drink before walking over to the counter to wait for it. I happily twirl around the necklace. Tristan just makes me so happy. He makes me feel wanted and doesn't make me doubt anything like... he does. I give the necklace a quick kiss.

"Hey, baby." I turn around, eyes twinkling in excitement. It quickly dies as I recoil in disgust. I take a step back. I look him up and down, still gorgeous, ugh- I mean terrible.

"Please get away from me," I say. I silently pray that my drink is ready so I don't have to talk to him.

"You know that boyfriend of your's can't compete with me. I'm-" I shut him up quickly, and shake my head angrily.

"I see you still can't stop talking bad about everyone," I scowl. Zach's brown eyes flicker with slight hurt even though he looks cocky. It's all in his eyes.

Someone shouts my name, and I turn immediately to them. Realizing it's just my drink, I thank them, grab it, and swiftly make my way out of the shop. And here I thought, I'd have a peaceful day by myself without having to stay home all day.

I barely make it ten steps before Zach grabs my wrist. He pulls me into him, his lips parted slightly. He tucks a stray piece of hair behind my ear.

"I missed you..." he whispers to me.

"Yeah? Well, I can't say the same." I know it's not true. I can't do that to Tristan though. I push him off of me as I try to make a run for it. Before I know it, Zach's already gotten me back into him.

He huffs at me frustratedly and sets his hands firmly on my shoulders. "I'm sorry for saying that shit about Tristan, okay? I just, I finally had you, and then I lose you again. I don't even know what I did wrong this time! It's just so... frustrating!" Zach hangs his head low, his breathing hitching.

Suddenly, his lips are on mine. I struggle to not kiss him back.

He has this way with me that just turns me into a pile of jelly.

Realizing what I'm doing, I push him off of me. I shakily look at myself as tears start sliding down my cheeks. I cry a lot.

I look up at him, and god, those eyes hit me and hurt me so much. They twist my heart with a fiery pain and make me regret ever leaving Zach. But I can't get that girl and him out of my head. Even if it was a long time ago, the fact that it even looked recent hurt like hell.

I crumple to the ground, sobbing loudly. I feel disgusting. I honestly could care less who's watching.

"Babe?!" I look up to see Tristan standing above me with concern written all over his face. The moment I connect with his eyes I start crying harder. How could I do this to him? As he turns towards Zach, his whole stature changes. He becomes more rigid.

As soon as Tristan starts yelling, everything starts going out of focus. I can barely hear what Zach and Tristan are yelling at each other, and soon enough they just become blobs of color.

This is too much.