it's you [malik]

thirteen | toot toot

this chapter is lowkey long asf.
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"Should Rowan come today or tomorrow?" Brook asks Nia and I.

Rowan is Brooklyns boyfriend. They've been together for a while I think, even though I have never seen them together.

"We just got here yesterday. seriously?" I say looking up from my phone while shoving dry cheerios into my mouth.

Me and the girls decided to wakeup early and eat the hotel breakfast. Since we aren't famous like the boys ( yet atleast ) we can still do normal people things like that.

"Yes seriously. Not everyone can travel the world with their man Alana. Plus I miss him." she snaps back.

"Wait until week 3. We haven't even been here a full 24 hours." Nia says eyes glued to her notebook.

Yes, she's working on more songs. Not for us to perform the next few nights but by show 5 we'll have some new songs to sing as we open for the boys.

"Y'all are so annoying." Brook rolls her eyes then gets up from the table causing us to just laugh.

After we ate breakfast we got ready for our first ever rehearsal. I thought it would be really easy going but it ended up being more stressful then I expected.

"Nia. You aren't getting it! Have you not been paying attention the million times i've showed you the move?" I groan. 

Im so frustrated and nervous. I don't want to mess up tonight but the girls are acting like this is a joke.

"Chill out Alana. She'll get it." Brooke says.

I have no idea why i'm being so anal about this. It's probably just my nerves getting to me.

"I'm taking a break." I mumble storming out of the venue.

Right when I got through the doors I bump into something. Someone.

"Holy shit. I'm so sorry." I say then look up realizing who I fell onto.

"Its fine." Zayn's deep accent says.

I see annoyance flicker on and off his face then he continued walking.

"Wait" I call after him. He turns around confusion prominent on his face.

"Can I ask you a question?" I say. "You just did." he said then continued walking.

"No wait not that. I need advice on how to get over anxiety before performing? I'm losing my shit in there." I speak.

He just kind of chuckled and rubbed the small jet black beard he has growing.

"You never get over it, love." he says bluntly.

What?

I was about to ask him what he meant but as soon as my mouth opened to speak he was gone.

Great.

Eventually we got through a perfect rehearsal and now its about 30 minutes until we have to perform.

Its so loud and hectic backstage but I feel so much adrenaline running through my body. I love it. The boys (excluding zayn ofc ) are helping us get ready with the mics and giving us moral support.

"You're going to do amazing." Niall says in my ear.

I hope so. I really do.

"Blaze. On stage in 3. 2. 1."

My legs were shaking as I followed Nia and Brooklyn on the stage. Everything was intensified. The crowd was louder. Lights brighter.

"Hey Everyone. We are Blaze." Brooklyn says to the mass of people.

I look towards the side stage and see the guys thumbing me up cheering us on.

"We're good friends of the boys of One D. We wont take all their tine but we would like to sing alittle something for you all. Cool?" She finishes then we're greeted with loud cheers.

Wow. They're supportive.

The three of us got in our spots while the music started. It was almost exactly like when we performed it for Simon. The words rolled off my tongue like I didnt just learn it a few days back. The dancing part is always easy for me as long as I don't fall. Which I didn't.

The crowd learned some of the words as we went on and started singing it back and it was just so indescribable.

Maybe it wasn't such a bad idea after all?

I looked over to the wings at some point during the song and see Zayn kind of watching me, well us, but mostly me. But I just looked away hoping he didn't notice me but when I look back a few seconds later he no where to be seen. Interesting.

The song ends and we exit the stage while the crowd cheers for us loudly.

"We just performed. We just actually performed for the first time in front of a crowd. Can you believe this?" Nia says jumping up and down.

"I know. I dont know how to feel." I say taking a deep breath that i've been holding since we left backstage.

"You should feel like a boss ass bitch. We killed that Alana. They loved us!" she says shaking me and I just smile.

Shes right. For a first performance infront of thousands we did better than expected. I'm not the conceited type but I'm going to give ourselves the credit when its due.

We did great and not to toot my own horn or anything but. Toot toot.