it's you [malik]

thirty-two || for the team

This is a catastrophe.

Nia and I sat brainstorming ideas of how I'm going to get myself out of this situation and we only came up with about 3 mediocre solutions. I even took the initiative to write them down in my Notes App so I don't forget all of my options.

Solution #1

Just avoid him. Yes, I have done this before and it wasn't completely successful but as long as I avoid the elevators I should be fine.

Solution #2

Break up with Niall before he finds out about me cheating on him with Zayn. He doesn't deserve this. At all. This isn't the best idea either because it would be awkward as fuck for the next 3 months and I would be completely dragged by a bunch of Directioners.

Solution #3 (This is the one that IS NOT going to happen. Ever.)

Tell Zayn I like him. He probably won't feel the same so, if I admitted I had feelings for him it would hopefully scare him off and he would leave me alone.

None of these are going to work out how I want them too. First things first, I'm not telling Zayn I like him. Mainly because I'm not even sure if I'm just dickwhipped or if I could've somehow caught feelings for the asshole of a person that is Zayn Malik.

Also, I really need to talk to Niall. Right when I started avoiding Zayn I was sort of avoiding Niall too. I know he isn't the type to complain to me about how distant I'm being because he thinks wanting my attention is selfish but I don't want to keep treating him like this.

I pull my phone out to text him so I can get some alone time with him later and I can apologize about being such a shitty girlfriend.

"Hey babe. Come to my room later after the show. Miss you x."

I went back to my room so I can get dressed and not look like how I feel on the outside then since Nia wanted food I went downstairs with her to get breakfast. I'm not even hungry. It's not even because I've been eating hotel breakfast for about a month and a half and I'm tired of it. My lack of appetite is from constantly feeling like my life is a roller-coaster that is eventually going to descend into a raging inferno.

"I could always talk to him. You know we're kind of friends." Nia offered causing me to recover from my thoughts.

"He doesn't do well with listening to you guys. Brooklyn told him to stay away from me or she'll cut his balls off. He obviously didn't listen." I say then we laughed.

I start telling her about everything that we talked about last night and all the funny/stupid things he said but I came to an abrupt stop when I noticed tanned skin and long brown coils coming towards our table. Brooklyn.

"You bitches really came to eat without me. I am wounded." She said sitting down next to Nia.

"You're the one who doesn't like being woken up. I thought we should just let you sleep then you'll come down when you want." Nia claimed in defense.

I just stayed quiet since I don't know where I stand with Brooklyn anymore after the whole elevator shit. I guess she caught my vibe because she wasn't talking to me either. The whole breakfast was really just awkward and silent as hell. I was quiet, Brook was quiet and silently judging me, and Nia didn't know which one of us to talk too.

I was about to get up and go back upstairs when I notice Nia staring at me intently. I look back at her with furrowed eyebrows and she just looked behind me as if she was trying to point to something. I turn around slightly in my chair and almost choke on my orange juice as I witness Zayn getting some breakfast. He never gets breakfast.