Him || Namjin

Chapter 45 | The Ugly Truth

Jin POV
It's been three days since I haven't talked to Namjoon. He has been busy looking for a job. 'But Finally, he got one. He works at the movie theater now.' And I been busy with my job and working on Jungkook's present.

It was a Tuesday morning and I woke up really early so I can get more for Jungkook and I need to get some groceries. I getting low on food.

When I got the store, I got me a cart and start looking around to see what I should cook. When I was looking around, someone taps my shoulder. I turn around and see who it was. My heart drop, I can't believe what I'm seeing with my two eyes.

He gives me a devilish smile. His eyes were so glad to see me. He looks like he didn't get any sleep and he looks thin. "I finally find you." He smiles. I slowly try to back away but he told me if I move a muscle, he would hurt me. I can feel my cold sweat dripping down my forehead. I don't know what to do, my heart is beating fast.

"How? I thought they throw you in jail." My voice shakes. He smiles. He licks his lip and he couldn't stop smiling at me. I can feel the chills going down my spine. "Well since you black out. Let me tell you the whole story. You see. When you black out, your friends try to be the hero of the day and help you but they were weak and pathetic. Your friends try to call the cops but I couldn't let him do that. So Jimin, I think that was his name, try but fail because I throw a piece of glass to his hand so he can't call the cops."

My heart was beating fast, every time he spoke, I can feel my leg getting weak. I'm in shock that he remember Jimin. Did someone say his name while I black out? How does he know?

"Next you know it, someone knocks me down and I black out. I still remember his face but I don't think he was a friend of yours. He was more like a stranger. Anyways, I woke up in my place, getting recovery from one of my friends since she was a doctor. The cops that came to your place, those are the cops I paid so I can get away." He smiles.

I try to swallow but I couldn't. It feels like something is blocking me to swallow. Making me hard to breathe. I look around and think what to do. "What were you going to do to me if my friends weren't there.." I question. He chuckled a bit and lean into my ear. "I was going to kill you but your friends got in the way but my plan still works. When I was out cold, one of my friends went out, following your mother. Before your mother was about to drive, he cut her breaks. Next thing you know, she was in a really bad car crash. God, He told that he still remember the face she made when she saw me. Before the ambulance comes, he makes sure she was dead. Once he was checking her, she was still alive but he knows the right thing to do so he had to end her life right there on the spot. We didn't want her telling cops what really happen........ Oops, I say too much." He laughs.

I can't believe what I'm hearing. He was the one that kills her. He was the one that ended her life. But it was my still my fault because she was in the rush to see me. He made me suffer. I look at him, tears forming. "You motherfucker! Why did you have to end her life? She didn't do anything to you. All she did to you, she left you. I don't know why you fucking care when she left. Like you always beat her up and treat me and her like shit. You always liked my older brother then me. But what did I did to you? Nothing. " I breathe heavy. He looks at me and raises his eyebrow. "Oh, you don't know why. She fucking took my money and left me. I know she was cheating on me so I had to do that to her so she can learn her lesson but she never did. And you, you were an accident to me. I never wanted a second son. Never. Besides, you are just a fuck up kid that doesn't know who you really are." He smirks

My heart broke. Hearing that coming out his mouth broke me. I look at him and I start graining my teeth. "I just had to end her life because she knows my friends. Once she sees, she tells. It can be easier for me to k-."

"Shut the fuck up. She was trying to earn the money to feed me. You always feed my brother and make me starve myself. She was the only one that supported me and be who I am. I'm sick of tired of you saying that you never wanted me. I don't care anymore. You never were my father. You never agreed me who I want to be. You know what, she wasn't that one the to plan on leaving. It was me. When we were hiding and you find us, I knock you out, I couldn't face you and I didn't want you to follow us anymore so I pack mine and her stuff and we left. But we never took your fucking money, you greedy bitch." I shout.

My eomoeni was the one that she wanted to leave in the first place but I didn't want her to suffer anymore since she's not here anymore. I want her to be in peace up there.

I start to breathe heavy, tears fall down, my heart aches so much. I can't believe. My hand form to a fist and look at him. "You little shit, I remember that you knock me once. Huh. I'm in shock you have the strength. Even though you were weak and pathetic." He shows his devilish smile.

I couldn't take it anymore. I can't stand seeing the smile anymore. "Fuck You." I raise my arm and throw a punch at him. He fell down and look at me, anger in his eyes. I can feel people start staring at us. He touches his jaw and laughs. I grab his shirt and pull closer to me. "Oh, you think it funny. You make me suffer. I lost the only person I love and care. There no way ima get her back. Because of you." I growl. My voice starts to shake so much that warm salty water coming down my face.

Before I can do anything to him, they got security and they told me to get out. I let go and give him the death glare. I grab my thing and start heading out. Once I was out of the store, I apologize for my action and made my way home. When I was walking, it started to rain, not to light or not too heavy. I look at the sky. My hair was covering my eyes and tears, coming down my face.

I know she watching me every day but it hurts me so much that I can't anymore. I don't want to be here in the real world anymore. Before I can do anything, I need to do my last stop.

|10 minutes later|

I finally made it to the graveyard. It was all muddy and slippery. When I was looking around to see where she was, I make sure no one was here with me. I finally find her. I find her grave. I give a smile but yet broke down. I kneel down and try to get closer to her. I don't care if I get dirty and all. I can't take it anymore. "I know I can't blame myself because you told me to but I can't take it anymore. It was my fault you try to come to me to the hospital. It was my fault that he did this to you. I'm so sorry. I really try to be positive but eomoeni, I can't take this anymore. This really hurt me so much, I don't want to suffer anymore. I miss you so much. I don't think I can do this alone. I feel bad, I should really tell you the truth about school and how I really feel. I couldn't protect you. I'm so sorry........" I cried.

I scream out so I can let all my pain out. I lay next to her and cry. I know I'm pathetic but I'm really trying. I just close my eyes and sleep next to her, not caring that the rain is hitting my face.