Him || Namjin

Chapter 11 | Lost

Jin POV
I check the time and it's 2:55pm. I been sleeping for eight hours, that's a new record for me but it feel like I been sleeping just for 20 minutes. I put my phone down once again, close my eyes and touch my lips. 'It felt so real.' I can't stop thinking on what happen. I though it was real but it was just my imagination. I pull up my phone and text Jimin.

|Jimin Chat|

Jin: Hey, im sorry to bother you but is there a way you can, I don't know, Come over and talk for a while. I really need to talk to you about something. It's important.

Not even a second goes by, he immediately text me back.

Jimin: Of course I would love to come. You never bother me. I'll be there in 5 minutes. Do you want me to bring Jungkook along?

Jin: No. Just you. I need to talk to you alone. It about something. If you want. You can spend the night at my house. Your welcome if you want. :]

Jimin: oh okay, I'll see you in a bit then :]

I put the phone down and took a deep breath. I got up and see what to eat while I wait for Jimin to come.

Time goes by and I hear a knock at the door. I slowly walk toward the door and he knock again "Coming!" I yelled. I open the door and I saw Jimin with some snack and he's stuff. "Sorry I took so long. I was buying some snack. Oh, I told Jungkook if he want to spend the night with us too and he say yes but I told him not right now so he's coming later. If that's okay with you. I know I should ask first but I don't think this talk won't take long right." I nodded and welcome him into my house. He bow down and walk inside. I shut the door behind him and we head to the living room. He put the snack on the table and got himself comfy. "So what is so important about this talk." He question. I took a deep breath and began to explain.

"I want to tell you that." I can feel a lump in my throat. I can feel water forming in my eyes. Why do I want to cry. It's not that bad. "I-I...Jimin, I don't know what to do." I burst into tears. I can feel the warm tears falling down on my face. Jimin freak out, he got up and hug me. "Jin, what's wrong. Did something happen at the hospital?" He question. I don't know why I feel like this, I never like this. I try to explain what happen but I can't, I end up crying harder.

Five minutes goes by and I can feel Jimin stroke my hair and it calm me down a bit. "Okay Jin. What wrong. Is everything fine?" I look at him and he look so worry. "Jimin, I don't know, I feel so lost. This feeling I have inside me, it's making me feel sick but in the same time it doesn't. Like it feel like its been there but I never showed until now you know." I stopped. "What you trying to say here?" I look at him and look away. "Im starting to like Namjoon but it just, I don't want to like him. It's, I don't know. I hate him so much but in someway , I don't hate him. I don't know what to do. I need your help." He shake his head and clean his ear if he is hearing it right.

"Oh. I didn't know you were gay. I'm so happy for you!" He hug me and swing me around.

He is the first person that know I am. I never told no one that I am, not even my mom.

"Well I know how you feel.... well of course I know how you feel. " he joke around and I roll my eyes. "Well you see, showing your love to them is hard at first because you don't know if they have feeling for you. But you have to think too, he did shit to you that hurts you Jin. Like for me, Yoongi did a lot of shit to me but for some reason, he stop. That day, he came up to me and he apologize for his action. I accept his apology and act like nothing happen. The next day, he did it again but then. The point is that you just have to tell yourself if you really want to love someone that give your life, hell." I stay silent for a bit and  look at my hand. 'Do I really want someone in my life that will give me shit and don't care or love me.' I look at Jimin and thank him for the talk. "If you want to talk, or ask more question about it, I'm always here." He wink at me. I smile and hug him. The door knock, both pull away and we both look at each other, wondering who it is. I got up and slowly walk toward to the door. I open the door and it was Jungkook. "Sorry I came so late, I got lost coming here." He explain with some snack and games in his hands. "You not late, you came just in time."