And we watch the sun go down (Janoskians)

I've been feeling so alone

It was quiet as Beau drove me home. The only sound was the soft humming of the car and crackling radio that was playing 'The Call' by Regina Spektor as Jai gripped my hand tightly. Like he never wanted to let go. 

"Is this it?" Beau asked.

I nodded. The familiar brick flat came into view, I took my time stepping out of the car, cradling Jai's gifts from yesterday in my hand.

"Wait, Julia," Jai stepped out of the car and dropped my iPhone into my hand.

"Text me beautiful," he whispered in my ear, giving me one last hug.

"I will, I promise," I threw my arms around him, cringing at the moment where I would have to let go and my life would turn back to hell.

"I'll see you again right?"

"There's no doubt," he smiled.

"We'll be a phone call away."

"Thanks," I murmured.

"For everything. Its meant so much to me."

"Me too."

He kissed my lips once, and then watched me walk to the door.

"I'm here if you need me."

"I know, I love you Jai."

"I love you too."

And with that I opened the door, with one last glimpse of Jai. Wishing. Praying, that I would see him again.

I shut the door and felt the cold creeping across my skin, making goosebumps pop out on my legs.

Walking into my room, I threw myself onto my bed and slipped earphones into my ears, turning up the music real loud. 'Smile' by Justin Bieber blared out of the tiny speakers, I instantly picked up my phone and messaged Jai to try and chase away the lonely feeling that was nagging at me.

I twisted the diamond stud in his ear and spread myself across my dark, starry covers as I waited for him to reply. I jumped to the phone as it rumbled loudly.

Julia: I miss you already :(

Jai: Me too gorgeous, I'm counting the hours till I see you again

Julia: Don't fall in love with any other girls while I'm gone

Jai: Too late :)

I clasped my phone to my heart and let the Cheshire cat grin spread across my face until my cheeks ached. Before I could reply to his sweet text, I heard a car pull up into our driveway. My heart pounded so hard against my ribs I thought it would break free. Mum was home.

"Shit," the words escaped from my mouth before I could stop them.

I shoved my phone under the covers and flipped my legs over the side of the bed, wondering what my next move should be.

Pretend I was asleep? Read a book? Start washing dishes in the kitchen?

Instead I stayed where I was, until I heard the front door slam and bags being dumped on the table.

"Julia!" I heard her yell.

I shakily got up, walked out of my bedroom and closed the door. Praying that she had had maybe a good day at work. Unlikely.

"Hi mum," I said meakly.

"Why haven't you started dinner?" her brown eyes looked like they were shooting sparks as she shot out the question.

I opened my mouth but it was dry.

"Well?" she raised her voice, her hands curling into fists beside her slim waist.

"I'm sorry," I murmured.

"Sorry doesn't help the situation does it? After all I've done for you, after all the love and affection I gave you while you were growing up." she screamed.

I looked down at my feet and clecnhed my hands until my knuckles turned white.

"Your such a worthless and selfish child, no wonder your dad ran off on you,"

I dropped the glass that was in my hand at the sudden mention of my dad. A  tear squeezed out of my eye, I licked it as it rolled down my cheek, the saltiness spreading out on to my tongue.

"Look what you've done, you can't do anything right can you," her hand came out of nowhere and came into contact with my cheek.

My cheek stung, but not as much as inside of me as I backed away from her, my mouth wide open in shock, hands pressed against my cold cheek.

When I looked in the mirror I could see the faint red imprint of her hand still there. It was still stinging.

That night I wished Jai was beside me as I cried myself to sleep. Then maybe I wouldn't feel so alone.

Hey guys Julia here, don't worry my mom is nothing like this, she is the bestest. It would mean soooo much if you voted and kept reading! Love you all!

-Julia xoxox