Bad for my heart

Chapter 1

They say what doesn't kill you makes you strong
That's lies and bullshit. They forgot to mention
The heart. Bad for my heart.
But what if it kills that heart that beat once?
What if that heart can never be the same?
Will that still make you strong.
I believe that will only make you suffer
That's why you have to move on.
Forget the past and forget fucking Knights.
My weakness and strength Damien knight.
Became my nightmare.

-Queensofsupreme (Charlotte) (Ps. This is shit I just made up.)

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Charlotte POV.

A year, One fucking year has past and there's no sign of Damien, the only guy I ever loved. I still love him. And only God, the same God that took my child away knows that. The only thing I would have of Damien would've been my baby, my baby who's no longer here. But now, I only have a fucking ring. A promise ring. He gave me the ring as a promise to love me and forever be mine but now, now where's he.

"Stop thinking about him char please char forget about him." Once again Sofia disturbs me from thinking about him. She always begs me. She pleads but I can't help it. I just hope one day I'll see him again. May one day, just one more day I see him again.

"I'm sorry Sofia, but don't you think life is so unfair ?" Life the one thing I always never thought would betray me. It's been three hundred and sixty-five days since I last saw my Damien knight. And it's the day I also lost my baby, Emma or Elliot knight. Saying that name already makes me smile because Damien would've killed me. He would've never wanted any of his son called Elliot. He always wanted to name them demon so they could be strong. But I know deep down he himself isn't even close to strong. His soft. Too soft for a mafia man.

"Char, no one ever said life would be fair. We just have to accept it." Sofia said while taking a seat. She's a good woman, she may be a year or so older than me but she's a role model to me.

"I know but I can't Sofia. I love him you know." My ears formed tears. Damn you, eyes. Why the hell are you betraying me?

"I know and that's why you have to move on. If you were meant to be then you will meet again. Someday, somehow, somewhere. But now you need to live your life. Party like you used to before you met him." As Sofia was talking I didn't hear a word she said but as soon as she said someday, somehow and somewhere. That's what got my attention.

Last time I met Damien knight it was by accident. I would've never thought I would fall in love with someone, let alone a person like him. The only person who knows about my baby is Sofia. No one else. She promised not to tell anyone and I know she will keep that promise.

"You know Damien hated girls with blond hair." I started laughing remembering how he used to make his face when I told him I'm a natural blond. He hated it. He always said blondes are crazy and bitches. But I'm a natural brunette and he liked me for that.

"There's that beautiful laugh I miss. It's been forever since you last laughed." I couldn't Believe it myself almost a year since I laughed genuinely. Not fake or anything.

"I'm going blondie my Fia." I said as I got up. Yes, finally I'm going to get my life back. A year has past and I'm still crying over a silly guy that doesn't even know his lost a baby. He knows nothing and I bet he is enjoying his life while I suffer and mourn for him and my baby.

"Don't be like Benjamin. I hate him and I'll start hating you too or else." And just like that Sofia bought me back to life. Thanks to her I'll enjoy life from today onwards. Yes, I'll always remember the baby I lost. And I'll always love my baby, but fuck you Damien knight, I'll always love you. But from now onwards I will live my life like before you came in.