Some Mad Hope (ML, #4.5)

Kabanata 28

Kabanata 28

Battle

I continuously kissed both of his side lips and the middle of it as I tried to pull off his shirt. I felt that he grinned widely when I was too fucking frustrated dragging the top off him. My back hit the cold wall of my condo. Akala 'ko'y natumba ang vase na bigay ni Mommy sa akin noong 18 years old ako. I almost pissed myself, but shit, who cares? I want a release. The pain. The frustration. I want to take this off my mind. Everything that happened today? I can't believe that my head still processing it.

"Angel, easy..." he breathe heavily. "We can do this without breaking anything, aye?" he kid.

I blank-face him. I wet my bottom lip and shake my head.

"Alright, alright. We can break things, but we need to be careful not stepping on it?" kaagad niyang sunod. Napabuntong hininga siya nang hawakan 'ko ang pisngi niya. I just want to hold his face forever. Kiss it until the throbbing officially go away. Does it? Ganito ba iyon kadali? "Hmm...okay--" I interrupted him and brush my lips against him. A smooth, harder, and wild lips are touching. His hands wander at the back and stop on my bottom. He squeezed my ass and I felt that he slowly lifting. I automatically wrapped my long legs around his waist. I stopped kissing him for a moment and lingered my gaze on his face. The steel-blue eyes are on mine and consuming every inches of my flush skin. Bumaba ang tingin 'ko sa kanyang matangos na ilong hanggang sa hindi na natiis ng kamay ko na hawakan ang kanyang pisngi. His cheekbones are everything. Clients fell on that easily, as I am. "You really obsessed with it, huh?" panuya nito sa akin. I smile and nod because it is the truth.

"And your eyes, they are so, so, so blue..." I whispered then pouted. "All of you, I mean the Bon Brothers, got your eyes from your father. Do you, do you see him often?" Hindi 'ko alam kung bakit gusto kong malaman ang tungkol sa father niya. I know he do not speak of him. He is mad, all of them. That's all I know. What am I doing! I am prying him! "No...no..." I stuttered. "Don't answer it."

His face darkens more. He closed his eyes, maybe he is thinking. Gamit ang likod ng kamay ay hinaplos 'ko muli ang kanyang pisngi. "You don't have to answer that. I am sorry, really, dahil nagtanong ako."

"It's nothing, angel..." ang una niyang mga salita. "My father is a cheater. That's it." When he open his eyes, its rake through my features. I like it. I am very much aware of him, drinking me. "It's okay. I'll be happy answering your question, you know..." He looks away. I want to know what he is thinking. Is that selfish? Maybe. "And you can also tell me what's wrong, alright? Mukhang gago man ako, but I can be serious. I promise you that. But before that...pwede naman tayong pumunta sa kama para matapos na 'tong dapat gagawin natin." He wickedly smirk.

I glowered immediately.

"Baba mo na 'ko," I said coolly.

Naaligaga siya sa mababa 'kong boses. "Mags, I am just joking! Alam mo naman--"

"I know," mabilis kong sagot. "What happened kanina. I just...knew my real mother."

His eyes softens. It feels like he senses my pain. Gone is the brooding look, but my man.

"It just hurts...alam mo 'yon. Finally after all these years na nakalimutan 'ko na 'yon. Because kuya makes me remember every time that I should be grateful right now having Mommy Demi and Daddy Benedict! They could be really the real parents of us! Because our parents neglect us...as their children. Gusto 'ko ganoon na lamang ang isipin...but I don't know how to...again. Maybe I just need kuya right now..." My chin quaked. Kaagad na tumulo ang luha sa aking pisngi. Newt wipes my overflowing tears. "Pero ayokong ako ang akikasuhin ni Benj. He has bigger more problems. I don't want to be a burden." Umiiling ako. Kaagad 'kong naramdaman ang paghigit niya sa akin. He slowly put my head against his chest softly. I cried again. "I don't really know why it is hard..." I sobbed. "To finally know the reason why she left me there. But I ran away...afraid to know why."