Some Mad Hope (ML, #4.5)

Kabanata 22

Kabanata 22

Sorry

The ice almost melts on my square glass. The fruity and refreshing cocktail looks so boring in my perception. But I think my body needs some hard liquor. Mai Tai won't affect my system. It needs more hard and solid. That almost going to knock me out. That almost going to make me forget some shitty events.

I sighed.

Straight Up is not crowded when it is weekdays. Mabuti na lamang ay ganoon. It is my perfect place to calm my thoughts with some of my favorite cocktails. The views of Manila's skyline is quite magical and sometimes, I wish I could disappear a moment. Mostly, my friends in industry party here on Friday or Saturday. I keep coming back here because of their drinks. But it seems like my lungs won't like it.

A Jazz singer is currently singing a melodic song. It makes me somehow, or sorry, it makes my head sway into the rhythm. It is so fine that almost makes me have a good time here. Atleast.

"Care to share with you?" a playful voice suddenly appeared. Naapayos ako ng tayo mula sa bilog na mataas na mesa. When I look up who's speaking, my brows suddenly furrowed. Nahalata niya kaagad ang reaksyon 'ko kaya kaagad siyang nagsalita. "Mags, you look problematic? Come on!" Niklaus grinned.

I face-palmed him. Umirap ako at nilagok ang inumin. "Gwen's not here. Shoo!" Tinaboy 'ko siya habang hawak ang glass. An evil smirk stretches across his face. Napahimas siya ng baba habang nang-aasar ang mukha. Niklaus is a friend on other agency. It is Vienne, the founder is a known family. Katulad ng kompanya ni tito Douglas, isang sangay nito'y nakatuon tungkol sa fashion industry. I met Klause before he went on modelling, too because of my cousins. Klaus will always be judge as snob because of his edgy look, but he's more to that. He is cocky and naughty. Hindi 'ko alam kay Gwen kung pa'no niya nasasabing mabait ang lalaking ito! Yes, I know, he is good-looking! But hell?

"You're pissed, but still looking hot, Mags, stop that," biro niya.

I punched his bicep. Nagkunwari itong nasaktan ngunit dinagdagan ko pa ang palo sa kanya. Mas lalo pa siyang natawa sa aksyon ko! Grr!

"Stop bothering me, Klaus," I vent.

"Stop bothering me, Klaus," he mimicked my tone and mocking my expression. Kung may laman lang na liquid pa ang baso 'ko tinapon 'ko na sa kanya iyon. My temper span won't even extends into minutes. I will be annoyed in seconds!

I roll my eyes. He laughed out loud.

"Seriously, Mags, whatever your problem is, kung tungkol sa lalaki 'yan, don't be affected that much, alright?" aniya.

Nagtaas ako ng kilay. Napatingin muna ako sa paligid kung may pamilyar na tao. I don't know why I secure the place with my gaze! Hindi naman dapat because I am going to say what I want to say. I don't want any validation! My confession to Klaus is my truth. And I think I need to tell it to someone. To let out my emotions. Or maybe my frustration. "I just had sex with someone I dearly loved, Klaus." My eyes water immediately. Iniangat 'ko kaagad ang ulo 'ko. I can't look at him, I might cry and let this shitty tears to fall.

"Sex is good, what's wrong with it?" aniya.

Kaagad 'ko siyang sinamaan ng tingin. "You're a pissed of shit," I spat like it is a venom.

Klaus immediately raised both of his arms, but smirking devilishly. He laughed out loud that make us vulnerable with other people's sight. "Tone down, please." Umirap muli ako sa kanya. "Bakit ko nga ba in-open sa'yo 'to?"

"Hmm..." ang tanging nagawa niya.

"You are like him. You play with woman's feelings. And be a dick after getting what you want," gigil na gigil 'kong mutawi. I look straight at him. "Men just like sex and the high of it. Never because of something precious! They like to satisfy their dick!" I almost shouted every words. I feel conscious suddenly. Gusto 'ko tuloy mawala na lamang ng parang bula sa lounge na ito! Ngayon din!