I've learned a lot over the years. I really have and something I've learned recently is that the road to healing isn't a straight one. It's not from point A to B which exact amount of time it will take to get there nor does it have the fastest vs slowest way to get there! But god, so I wish it did sometimes!
I find now that I have learned my lesson from Depression (that I can choose to be happy) I am really trying and am slowing getting better. Having said that does not mean that every day is a good day. In fact, this last week I had a Bad Day. I wanted to self-harm again... And as much as I wanted to, I stopped myself (barely), but I did it!
Honestly? I still have times when my old ways of thinking (my bad habits) slip back into my head and everything gets to be too much. It's hard, it really can be, but it's worth it.
I say to myself things everyday that I struggle with as I've noticed that over time (fi done daily) it really changes things. Rather than saying things like: I am ugly, I hate myself, I am not worth it, I am not good enough... I say, I am pretty, I love/will love myself, I am worth it, I am good enough. I say these things in the mirror, I straighten my spin and sit up/stand tall. I say it with conviction (which was really hard to do a first).
I try not to let a Bad Day define my whole week.. One Bad Day doesn't make it a bad life.
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Poems and Rants Of A Killjoy
PoetryAll of my thoughts written down in here... This is a place for those who need a safe haven of sorts. Made by one of your own. I hope you can learn from my mistakes. "Come one, come all to this tragic affair..." -Dead! By My Chemical Romance [ON-GOIN...
