Trying to return to Normal

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I wake up to an empty bed, and a dark room. I sit up, looking around. The lights were off, and Cameron wasn't here. I slipped my feet off the bed, letting my feet hit the cold wood. I stand up, shivering at how cold it is, making a mental note to buy slippers. I walk to the door, and open it, peering down a dark hallway. 

I walk down the hall, seeing the light on at the end of the hall, the bathroom. I go and knock on the door, curious. "Cameron? What are you doing?" My voice is groggy, and I rub my eyes, from just waking up. 

The door knob turns, and the door opens. I wince, closing my eyes as the blinding light hits my eyes. Cameron chuckles, and I open my eyes again. He has a towel on his shoulders and is in his boxers. My heart starts beating really fast, and I bite my lip blushing. "Mel, it's 7:35 am. School is in thirty minutes," he chuckles, and my eyes go wide, I rush to the spare room my stuff is in, and get some clothes then rush into the shower. I shower, do my makeup and hair, and leave the bathroom. Cameron honks, and I rush to his car, sliding into the passenger side. My anxiety, now kicking in. 

"Cam.... they are gonna bully me worse. I'm scared," my eyes grow wide, and I start picking at my chipped nail polish. Cameron takes my hand, rubbing his thumb on the back of it, instantly relaxing me.

"I'm not going anywhere, Melissa. I promise you, i'll be here every step of the way," Cameron says as we pull into the parking lot. He parks and we get out. We hold hands, walking into school and to our lockers. I receive stares, and some snicker at me, but I just look down at his hand in mine, smiling softly. We get to our lockers, put our things away and walk to our classes. He hugs me and leaves, going to his classroom as I enter mine and go to the very back, by the window. I sit down, putting headphones in and begin to drown out the class.

Starts drawing in my notebook, shutting out the whole class, while listening to music. Hears people snicker, and feel stares. I keep ignoring them, which pisses them off, so they throw wadded up paper balls at me. I stand up silently, put my things away, calmly leaving class. I walk to my locker, sitting in front of it. The halls are silent and empty, I pull my knees to my chest, headphones still in. I start to silently cry.

The bell rings, the once empty hallway, now crowded with all the kids. Sighing, I stand up. I open my locker, and change out my books for my next class. I wait for Cameron, but don't see him, so I start walking to my class. I turn the corner, and instantly regret it.

I found Cameron, but he wasn't alone. Head cheerleader, Jessica was there, and they weren't exactly talking. Jessica had him leaned up against the lockers as she made out with him. I imedietly turned around, fighting the tears. 

Slowly, I walk past everyone and thru the main doors, and keeps walking, past Cameron's car, past the school gate, and passed everything. I get to Cameron's house and go to the spare room. I shut the door, locking it, finally letting myself cry.

As I feel the warm tears fall, I look around the room. The walls were bare, the room having nothing but a bed in the middle of it, not even made up, and a brown wooded dresser, with a flat screen t.v. above it.

I look and see all of my belongings in boxes in the living room. I sigh, and go down. I grab my iphone doc and bring it to the room. I plug it in, putting my iphone on it. I put on Sia-Breathe me and crank up the volume. I look around the massive room, getting an idea. I smile, wiping a few tears and sit on the bed, planning what to do.

I go to the boxes, and find my boxes of clothes. I start going through them, putting them in piles. I put all my long sleeves, cardigans, and turtle necks (all are black) in one pile, and hoodies in another. Then I put all my emo jeans separate from my regular, cute ones. Lastly, I put my girly clothes together. I then do the same with my shoes.

When I'm done, I hang my emo clothes in the very back of the walk in closet, and the shoes too. I look at the clothes and sigh, thinking to myself as I hang the girly stuff up, I won't be good enough for anyone if I dress like my feelings.... It's for the best. I put the shoes away, shutting the door, and leaning against it. Thinks for a minute before grabbing my keys, going to the store.

I spend an hour shopping and then go back to my room. I start to decorate my room, and put everything away. I get to my last box, wiping the sweat from my forehead from working nonstop. Mine and Cameron's song comes on, and I feel like crying again. I set the box on my bed, quickly changing the song. The song, Paralyzed by NF comes on as I finish unpacking the last box. 

I finish and look around the room, sighing happily (pic below). Grabbing my iphone, I plug in my headphones and sit on the bed, pulling out my black laptop, getting started on my multiple homework assignments.

 Grabbing my iphone, I plug in my headphones and sit on the bed, pulling out my black laptop, getting started on my multiple homework assignments

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A/N: 

Hey guys! I'm officially back. Got into car accident yesterday, moved into college 2 months ago, and have been hella sick but this b is back!!!!! 

Enjoy the chapter ;) 

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