In The End (Dolan Twin Fanfic)

28 Reality Check

Grayson's POV

I've been driving around for an hour now since I dropped Sky off. We didn't hug or anything so I know she's pretty pissed at me. But I have every right to be angry with her, right? I've only been with her for what 3 weeks now and we're already having our first fight and it feels like it's a big one. But who would say that to someone who's grieving! I parked at the edge of a cliff. They had a flat part right off the road and a fence so it was safe.

I stared out at the horizon, it was dark by now. I put my head on my steering wheel. Then I felt the wave of emotion take control. I started sobbing. I didn't really cry but I just couldn't help it. My breaths were short and forced. Why did he have to leave me? Why did we have to fight or go to that stupid tree. I wish we would've stayed home or something to prevent that from happening. I'm not a very religious person but why did God put that in my life? I don't even understand it. What do I do? So many questions have gone through my head that my brain hurts. I sat there and cried for a good hour.

Then I felt it. I just stopped. I stoped crying and I looked out into the dark sky. I was done. No more crying, no more saddness. Ethan wouldn't want me like this. It's damaging relationships. And my fans need me. I have responsibilities I need to tend. I turned the Jeep back on and drove home to sleep. Tomorrow, I was going to be productive and do something with my life other than sulk.

*The Next Day*

I just got out of bed; it's 8am. I've decided that I'm going to give Skylar some time alone and I think is what we need. She's been so great to me and been by my side forever so we need a day or two. I walked out and made some breakfast. I only used to make breakfast when Ethan hadn't woken up and then I would surprise him. I haven't done that in three months and I need to do it again. I'll admit that it felt weird not making the portions for two, but it felt nice to cook. I've always enjoyed that.

I ate my over-easy eggs, bacon, and grape jelly toast while I got on social media and I posted on Twitter. My fans need an update.

"Hey guys, I know it's been forever and I'm sorry for leaving you. I really do appreciate your concerns and understanding that I've been seeing lately. Sadly, there's no update on Eth, but I'm going to be productive today for you guys! I love you all so much!"

That sounded good, right? Whatever, my fans will enjoy it.

After I ate breakfast, I decided to go to the gym and work out. Although Eth and I were in weights at school, we always enjoyed working out at a local gym better and like I've said, I haven't done this in months. I changed into some gym attire and drove down to the gym.

After the workout I felt great. I felt pumped and ready. It was 10am now. Once I got home I ate a snack because I'm always hungry and I got on my computer and did some school work. I had some homwork that was due tonight at mid-night so I figured I might as well do it now.

After that, I had to make a model of space for science so I needed supplies. That's when I showered and blow-dried my hair. I gelled it up and put on my black t-shirt that matched my black jeans and timberland boots. I haven't worn those boots since last October. I grabbed my phone and keys and went to the store to pick up supplies.