You And I Against The World

Alive

Jennifer's P.O.V.

Everything is becoming so difficult and I feel like this pregnancy was harder than when I was pregnant with Max and Emme... I can't even breathe... I'm so scared because Alex isn't with me and I need my baby with me to help me deliver this baby.

I laid in my hospital bed ready and dilated. Tashi was beside me holding my hand.

"Baby if your dad isn't here... I want you in the room with me... I want you to experience labor with me... you're mature enough to understand what's going on." I said to Tashi as I caressed her cheek softly. She nodded and smiled widely.

"I won't let you down mama. Just don't break my hand okay?" Tashi said and giggled softly.

"Okay baby." I said and laughed softly. My mom was sitting in the corner. She knew what was happening with Alex but didn't wanna tell me. I know when she's hiding something because she has a certain look on her face.

I looked at my mom and she looked back at me and smiled. Just then I got my first contraction.

"Oh son of a bitch..." I mumble under my breath as my contractions start to hit. The first one was so strong.

Tashi looked at me worried and she held my hand and didn't know what to do.

"Momma you okay...?" She asked worriedly and I nodded softly.

"Yes baby.. do me a favor and put my hair up in a bun. I don't want it to get in my way." I said softly to her as I slowly calmed down. She then proceeded to do what I asked and put my hair in a perfect top knot bun.

"Is there anything I could get you...?" Tashi asked and looked at me.

"A barf bag would be great... I might get nauseous while having contractions because everything is so so strong.." She nodded and got me a bag then gave it to me.

"Thanks baby.." I smiled at her.

After 15 hour... my contractions were stronger and stronger than before.. Pretty soon I was fully dilated. With Max and Emme I never had a natural birth, I just did the c-section.

"Oh my god... I can feel so much pressure and I gotta push already!!" I screamed in pain and started to push already. My mom quickly got up and went to get the doctor.

The doctor rushed in and she was already ready and helped me push.

20 minutes full of screams and pain... My two baby boys were born.

I started to cry hard because I couldn't believe that I did a natural birth for the first time ever... I was so proud of myself and just having my three babies with me made me happier. Tashi looked at me and smiled widely.

"Mama you did it!! I'm so proud of you!!" She smiled and wiped my sweat with an ice cold towel. The nurses went to clean off the babies and the doctor started to stitch me up. I didn't feel anything because I was basically numb from the pain.

The nurses brought the babies back to me. "Have you decided the names yet..?" A nurse asked me and smiled.

"Iván Alexander Rodriguez and Elias David Rodriguez." I said and smiled. The nurse put two different bracelets on the babies with the names on it.

I was holding Iván in my arms and trying to breast feed him. He didn't want to take my nipple. The nurse tried to help me but it didn't work.. I broke down crying because I felt rejected.

Tashi was holding Elias and we both switched babies and Elias took my nipple and started to drink my milk. It make me somewhat happy but maybe Iván is just like max when he was a baby... he didn't want my milk either and was fed by a bottle..

My mom came over to me and helped me relax. She held Iván and fed him by a bottle of my milk. He started to drink it.

"Jennifer it's okay baby... Iván doesn't hate you.. he's just like max, he had to be fed by bottle remember..?" Lupe said.

I nodded softly and sighed.

"W-where's Alex..? He's supposed to be here.." I said curiously..

"Baby he got into a car accident but he just came out of surgery and is in a coma... medical induced coma of course. He's alive and well but they need to give him strong medicine and he needs to be in a coma for it so that he can get better faster.." Lupe said and sighed softly.

"Ma... why didn't you tell me earlier...?" I said and was upset and started to cry.

"Baby I didn't want you to worry... I was just doing what's-" lupe said but I cut her off. "Maybe what was best for me was telling me where my boyfriend was at. Instead of me freaking the fuck out while giving birth." I said and snapped.

My mom stood there and she didn't say anything.. she knew I didn't mean it because I'm just extremely hormonal and upset.

To be continued....